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writes:I had sex with 3 male prostitutes last week while visiting a foreign country with my female friend. I feel so guilty now, and I want to tell my husband. I know he will most likely leave me though and we have two children, one is just 6 weeks old and the other is a year and 2 weeks old. I went on the trip with my friend because she has been through a lot lately, her husband left her for a 19 year old and she had a miscarriage too last year. I didn't want to even go, but I went for her. While we were having drinks at a local bar a man approched us and asked us if we were interested in having some "adult fun" we were really intoxicated and my friend really wanted to do it, so I went along (not intending to do anything) When we got there, there were about 10 men standing there in their underwear. My friend chose one and she went off with him. I was just sitting waiting for her when this really hot young man came up to me and asked me if I wanted a "sample" I was still really wasted, so I went with him. He had a great tan body, and a hot foreign accent. I could tell he was well endowed. He gave me the best sex of my life. My husband is not really attractive and he has a small (and thin) penis. I often fantasize about sex with other larger men. My husband hasn't been able to give me an orgasm with his small penis, but this prostitute gave me 3 orgasms! My friend also had a lot of fun so the next day we went back and the guy I had sex with wasn't working that night, so I chose someone else almost equally as good. A couple days later we were drinking again and we decided to go back (I really wanted to see the guy I did the first night) he was there this time, and he asked if I wanted to do him and another man at the same time. This has been a long time fantasy of mine, so I said yes. It was too much to handle so I stopped it after a few minutes. But in total I had sex with 3 of them on my trip. My husband is a really nice guy, but I just don't find him sexually attractive. What should I do? I think that most people in my situation would have done the same thing as I did. I am having a hard time coming to terms with what I did though now that I am back to the reality that is my life, being a stay at home mother with 2 babies to look after. I feel guilty.
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reader, anonymous, writes (9 November 2008): i've travelled the world and places like this do not exist because women generally do not have high demand for their services. I don't believe it.
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reader, gadfly_in_your_drink +, writes (7 November 2008):
This "story" is a fabrication. It was written by a teenaged boy just before, during, or just after masturbating, or it was written by a lonely middle aged woman (whose husband may really have a small, thin penis) who has probably never been more than five hundred miles from home, never outside the United States, and who aspires to moonlight as a writer of Harlequin (or similar) pulp romance novels. Case closed.
(P.S. Did one of the gigolos look anything like Mario Lopez? Could he foxtrot?)
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reader, JTalbott +, writes (1 June 2008):
 I smell a fantasy story...
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reader, Ziggy Z +, writes (2 May 2008):
Let me get this right--you had a 5 week old baby, and you went to a foreign country and did all this? If you tell your husband, I absolutely 100% guarantee your relationship with him is over.
Your story sounds as if written by an immature teen writing to Penhouse Magazine, all the nonsense about a tan body, etc.
All of us have long held fantasies--but we don't just run out and do them , then blame our friend, the drinks we had etc.
Perhaps you should seek a new line of work, say in a bordello?
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reader, TELLULAH  +, writes (1 May 2008):
 Most people in your situation would have done the same? Sorry I dont think so!!!! Your just trying to make yourself feel better love. You acted like a complete slut, and are trying to justify it by blaming it on the size of your husbands penis.
Even if I had split with my partner and got raving drunk I wouldnt pay for a shag!!!!
I think you would have been better off paying a visit to Ann Summers. What you did is unforgivable. I certainly wouldnt forgive my partner if they did that to me./
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reader, anonymous, writes (1 May 2008): Tell him soon. The longer you leave it, the more you will break his heart.
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reader, Nascar0991 +, writes (30 April 2008):
Sex with anyone that is not your partner is just not safe. Your husband deserves to know so that he can decide for himself what he wants to do. Please tell him, as painful as it will be for him he needs to know.
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reader, anonymous, writes (30 April 2008): I'm not gonna bash you. I'm just gonna say you should leave your husband.
You CLEARLY want something else in a partner. Your husband deserves the truth. And he will probably want something else in a partner too once he hears it.
If you don't reveal this, then no matter what you say I still think you're doing it for your own reasons. You might tell yourself that you're "protecting him from the hurt" or "doing it for the sake of the kids" or whatever. But I call bullshit on any of that. If you don't come clean, I think it's really because you don't want to face the consequences of your actions. Even if you decided to stick it out for the kids, you could still show your husband the basic respect he deserves to tell him the truth.
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reader, Laura1318  +, writes (30 April 2008):
 Each morning I wake up and say to myself,
you have two choices today.
You can choose to be in a good mood or you can choose to be in a bad mood.
I choose to be in a good mood.
Each time something bad happens,
I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it.
I choose to learn from it.
Life is all about choices.
It’s your choice how you live life.
-Anonymous -
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reader, eddie  +, writes (30 April 2008):
 I don't think this is a true story. Sorry but it sounds a little strange. Where is there a place where women go to pick up male prostitutes. Male prostitution is notorious in the gay community. I think this is a fabrication.
If it's not, leave your husband, he deserves a partner with more integrity.
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reader, anonymous, writes (30 April 2008): Its quite obvious that you do not love your husband (if you did you never would have done this to him), so for fuck's sake woman let the man go. Let him find the love he deserves. He deserves to feel wanted and desired as well and quite honestly he deserves better than you. Own up to what you did take responsibility and don't give him all those bullshit justifications that you gave us (like the stuff about his small penis and the fact he can't get you off) b/c we all know that's a load and it makes you no less guilty. In my mind the fact you are using that to ease your own guilt, makes what you did even worse. Will it hurt when you tell him the truth? It will and I hate that its going to hurt him but he does deserve more, and honestly with your lack of responsibility I think he should be the sole provider for the children, though you still need to be contributing and get yourself together woman for their sakes.
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reader, oldfool  +, writes (30 April 2008):
 Don't tell your husband. So you had a few prostitutes? Despite the indignation of some of the men here, I'm pretty sure that a lot of men would have done the same thing in the circumstances. And they wouldn't tell their wives, either. So don't go beating yourself up about it. It happened. You enjoyed it. And you found something out about yourself and your feelings. If you tell him, you'll destroy him. If you feel the burden of guilt is too heavy, think of other ways to make it up to him.
What worries me more than your adventure is your dissatisfaction with your husband. It doesn't sound like it's going to get any better. Rather than hurt your husband in future (and I suggest it's highly likely that more things are going to happen), you should seriously consider the future of your marriage.
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reader, pyan +, writes (30 April 2008):
Hi
what goes on tour stays on tour. put it in the back of your mind and get on with life. it wpould drive him mad if he found out so best keep it quite. the think now is, is it a one off or do you think you will try again. i have had some experance with this if you want to message
good luck
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reader, Danielepew  +, writes (29 April 2008):
 Wow. I tend to avoid commenting on the opinions of other posters, but, sorry Carlreeves: Do you really think the important thing here is whether she used a condom? So, if all three male prostitutes used them, everything's OK?
And I have changed my mind, poster. I think you don't love this man. Do the right thing and leave him.
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reader, carlreeves +, writes (29 April 2008):
The important thing is the fact you have two kids, did you use a condom ?? or are you kids going to grow up loosing there mother to Aids ?
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reader, rproctor +, writes (29 April 2008):
There is a reason you feel guilty, it's because you are! What you have done is wrong, selfish, and cruel. There is no justification for what you have done, rather your husband has a small penis or that you are not sexually attracted to him, it does not make it right. And, I so do hope that you are wrong when you say that most people in your situation would have done the same, because I know for a fact that I would not have.Look at yourself. Look at who you are. Look at what you have done. Look at the lives you have emotionally destroyed because of your own selfish pleasures. Its not just your emotions, its your husband's and your children's. What you have done, in my opinion, is one of the worse things any person could ever do to another. It is people like you who create fucked up people! I could only imagine how destroyed your husband will be, and how your children will grow to think of you knowing the reason their father left is because of his slutty wife! Seriously, what is wrong with you? Do you not have respect? Morals? Self worth?I have absolutely no sympathy for you. None. The fact is, I wish I knew you and your husband in real life because I would definitely tell him if you did not. There is no reason for someone to be with you if you can not be faithful. And not only did you sleep with another man, you got gang-banged by a couple of prostitutes. That makes it so much more disgusting. And not only did you do it once under the influence, you admit to going back multiple times to do it again.Reading your message absolutely put a sickening feeling to my stomach. My penis is not giant, my looks are not amazing, but I would hope that to my partner I am their desire! Not a couple random prostitutes. If your life long fantasy was to get fucked by two dudes at once you should have lived that out long before your husband...If you have any sense of morals or dignity at all, you should tell him for his sake. How much longer will drag him along in your small little world? You might think I am being an asshole, or that I might be rude... But I can assure you that what I am writing here is only a fraction compared to the wrong, spiteful, fucked up web you have woven.
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reader, WastedLife +, writes (29 April 2008):
This situation is really sad. If you love your husband, you will keep this guilty knowledge to yourself forever, see a therapist if you must, but he must never know. It will devastate him and your family, and he may even disown the kids.If you don't love him, you have a lot of explaining to do to the mirror, if nobody else. I have had a lot of women leave me because I am not "fun", though I care more for any woman I would be with than she could ever know. If your husband is loyal, you owe him the same, or at least let him know you don't love him, but never destroy his good memories of your life so far.Of course, there are the kids and what separation/divorce will do to them. I'll leave it to the female members of the forum to comment on that. If you tell him, he will never trust you again, nor will you be able to trust him. This is your problem, and yours to solve on your own. Sorry to be so rough, but that's the way it is. I might be able to forgive, having gone through more pain this way than anyone deserves, but the average guy in his 20's or 30's won't.
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reader, Danielepew +, writes (29 April 2008):
I think you should sit and think about your life very carefully and honestly, and you should make a decision that you will actually put to practice.
You slept with these three male prostitutes because you don't have a satisfying sex life, and you're a bored housewife. That isn't going to change. In this site, we always hear women say that the size of the penis isn't as important as what a man does with it. In this case, you suggest otherwise. Anyways, the size of his penis won't change. He will get older and may have trouble sustaining an erection. And you will get older too, and he will feel much less attracted to you. He might improve his lovemaking, but you can't count on that. And I don't think he will agree to letting another man have sex with you at the same time. So, your sexual insatisfaction will most likely continue, and perhaps worsen.
If you can't be sure you will not do this again, then leave your husband, because he doesn't deserve this kind of cheating. Cheating is always painful, but what you have described would be just too much. And don't think about telling him the details, because you would certainly make him hate you. With very deep hate, you know?
Also, look at it another way. Do his small penis and lousy lovemaking make him deserve this? If you can't stay faithful to him, leave him.
I'm a little pessimistic in this case. I don't know how much the moderator changed your writing, but, your using words such as "fun", and the pleasure you exude when describing your adventure makes me think you don't feel sorry, really, and you will do it again.
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