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writes:Dear Cupid,Can love be so true when he is with other women at the same time he is with me?I am 38 yrs old and separated. I met a 68 yrs old married man through internet chatting. I fell intensely in love with him and we shared feelings online intimately for almost 4 yrs, though it was not really what I want but I just feel I want to make him happy because I love him very much. I become passive in our relationship, he is very playful to women as he had also affairs to some of my friends I introduced to him. I talked openly to him about his women online, and he asked me to trust him as he is just flirting and not a serious one as he is with me. I tried to understand the way he is with other women but I admit I feel depleted every time I feel I am neglected and he would just chat me when he is available. His reasons, he is a business man and would only be available to me when he has the free time though every day we usually chat and the subject our conversation is always about love making other than that he is not interested much. He hardly even know about my interest and didnt even ask about my real name. But still I gave up everything to him, my mind, heart and soul but he did not share everything about him. His reasons again he is limited as he is a married man and I believed, respected and trusted his limitations and understood everything about it. Our relationship is very tough as I need to understand everything about him and his limitations but do I have to understand too the way he is playing with other women? He tells me he loves me intensely and I love him so much too that I get my strength from him as he helped me on how to be strong in life and he guides me. But he is just too weak about women.Few weeks back, I had an outburst of my anger as I couldn't take in anymore when I knew again he flirted with another woman online. I get so confused of his feelings for me, I felt he is playing with me. I ended our relationship but Out of my anger, I said things openly how I feel and told him he is a deciever. It was so ruthless of me to do so as he had never called me names but because of my anger I was mentally lost that I wrote a letter to his son and revealed my relationship with his father but it wasn't a harmful letter. I only asked his son if he could give advice to his father not to play with emotions to women especially to those who somehow invest feelings for him for it is a devastating feeling.I feel so guilty now, I know I made a mistake of doing so and I wrote a letter to both of them and asked an apology of my actions.I just got hurt too much that i feel so low until now, depleted, feeling lost, agonizing the pain, I felt so ashamed of myself, really an excruciating pain since I gave up everything to him...all of me.I don't know what to do I feel so confused right now about how I feel and what I feel. How can I ever let go such feelings I feel inside? I am caught in between love and anger. Give me some advices please. I need your advices how to learn to let go.
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reader, Ich_liebe_dich +, writes (27 November 2009):
 Hello sister, there is a saying, think anything U want but dont say all of it. sending a letter to the son i think is a bit out of the border,But" i think your reaction is just normal. of course you are hurt and when somebody get hurt, instantly we feel angry. its normal nature as a soft and sensitive women like us. sometimes we have to be carefull on what we are doing. but i understand that we need also to protect our emotion. women, we are from venus. when we are angry we want to speak about it and we want to finish the problem as soon as we can. and if we try to speak about it in a diplomatic way and if did not work and he just like ignoring it sometimes we get full too then we get angry and cant control the emotion then thats the time we do things that we will regret after. but i think you are ok, youre doin fine. youre just protecting your self. but sister" do you think he is the right man for you to spend your time now? you are still young he is married. you already knew that he sometimes flirting to other womens in the internet. do you think he serious in this relation U two have. if the man is in love, i think they will try to get to know more all about their love ones.
please dont feel guilty to what you have done, that is only normal reaction. anyway i wish you all the good luck.. and god bless you dear.
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 November 2009): yeah, just let him go. He doesn't deserve your love.If he caused you so much pain, just leave him and find a person who can make you happy and be faithful to you.
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reader, manaja  +, writes (27 November 2009):
You should walk away from this guy if you can , he is using you for sex, he's telling you what you want to hear, you need to find somebody for you, affairs are no good , except just for sex, that is the ONLY attraction , nothing else, Ive had affairs with several married women over the years , it all boils down to the the same thing, BOREDOM and one thing he is , is bored, let him go, he'l find someone else do yourself a big favour and his wife too, dump him !
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reader, bitch  +, writes (27 November 2009):
Let this guy go. He will drive you insane with his cheating ways and will never be only yours. Don't send any letters to his family anymore, his children can't do anything for you or help the fact that their dad is a cheating bastard.
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reader, baddogbj  +, writes (27 November 2009):
 Affairs such as this can be among the most beautiful human interactions that there are or they can be sordid. Beautiful affairs are those which do not become weighed down by obligations, guilt and expectations but rather 2 people who come together purely for the joy of what they find in the other person. An affair can't fly and crashes if it is carrying too much baggage. Toss the baggage over the edge and enjoy the rest of the ride or jump ship yourself.
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