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Cheated on husband, now want him back?

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Question - (29 April 2011) 19 Answers - (Newest, 3 May 2011)
A female United Kingdom age 41-50, *ure-bure writes:

Hullo there, I am a married woman with a 2 year old son who doesn't know what to do next. The thing is I cheated on my husband two times and I was caught out by my husband. I truly love him and badly need him in my life. He was angry at first, but then bought me flowers and said he had forgiven me. Thing is, this guy I cheated on with tried to chat with me and two days after my husband out of the blue asked why I had contacted him? I was confused about how he knew I chatted with him much as I made it clear with the other guy that that was the end of any contact with him in the chat!!! I think my husband is a tech wizard, he always gets to know a lot of things even if it is after a year. He will remind u how u did this and that on the internet last year! He is truly a lovely husband and a gentleman whom any woman would be proud of. I badly need him, we sleep in the same bed but now for two months, he hasn't even touched me, kissed me or did anything. Whenever I try to touch him, he is lifeless, just keeps quiet and sleeps on. I wish he could talk to me. Please, I know I have done the most awful thing, but I have said sorry and he just can't forgive me much as he continues acting as if nothing like that ever happened.

I have to admit at times he acts so nicely to the extent that I think today we shall get close...he scares me at times, maybe he will do something one day which I will live to regret. i am willing to do anything to make him realise how much I love him, but what can I do, what can I do??? Despite all this, he has bought me flower for Easter, I have admit I was ashamed of myself to say thank you. I know some women out there wish they had him, but for now I want to fight and hold him forever, never to ever disappoint him in life again.

Thanks for reading my story, please please, I am sorry for what I did and I feel so guilty, dirty and ashamed!!!

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A male reader, anonymous, writes (3 May 2011):

I think what you have done to your DH, he is truly an angel to be only doing what he is doing. Just give him time to forget your sins. Only time heals these wounds from the person whom he trusted most in the world.

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A female reader, anonymous, writes (3 May 2011):

no one is angry at you . i think you only realise now what you stand to lose after being caugh cheating. perhaps you are angry at yourself.

you have had excellent advice. trust you will use it and get your life in order.

no more sex outside your marriage, girl. you have learnt a valuable lession and i think you know what is in store for you.

LoveGirl

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A male reader, Starmonster888 United Kingdom +, writes (3 May 2011):

Starmonster888 agony auntWe're not angry. Well, im not anyway, dunno bout the others.

Do update.

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A reader, anonymous, writes (1 May 2011):

I bought him an Easter card and wrote in it ho sorry I was about everything. When I gave him the card, he said thank you. But when he finished reading it, he just thrust it aside and there was total silence. I would do anything if it was possible to reverse what happened. I can understand why you people are angry with me and I am sorry that I have done this. That aside, I thank you for your advice. I will keep updating you on what happens.

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A male reader, Starmonster888 United Kingdom +, writes (30 April 2011):

Starmonster888 agony auntYou cheated on him twice. Frankly, if he had asked for advice on this site, I would have told him to leave you.

Just don't do it again and he'll gradually trust you again eventually. All you can do is wait.

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A male reader, Cerberus_Raphael Sweden +, writes (30 April 2011):

Cerberus_Raphael agony auntIf he is as sweet as you say, you have to let him know that and show him that you truly appreciate it so he can see just how much you regret those mistakes. Be his wife. That's not to say you should bend to his every whim but show him that you love him and that you want to spend the rest of your life with him. Remind him of the things that he did that made you happy so he can see how much you want to be with him.

Ask him if he still wants to be with you or if he thinks a divorce is best. I know you don't want that but if you ask, you will know whether or not he is willing to forgive you. If he says no, ask him why and the answer will either be that he doesn't know or that he loves you, either way, you will get either that flame of hope burning again or be forced to face a bitter truth, whatever happens, you will know what to do. If he does say that he still loves you, just give him time to forgive you, give him time to come to terms with the fact that his wife, a woman he gave his heart to, betrayed him. Everyone needs time to heal and even though he is behaving as though nothing ever happened, I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that inside he is dying, inside he wants to scream in pain and give in but he won't because you are still here and because I think he still really loves you, or at least, a part of him still deeply cares about you and what you meant to him.

If he is really intent on behaving as though nothing happened, try suggest going on a date, just as a way of starting again if for no other reason. Keep telling him that you love him and tell him that you want him to see you as his wife again.

I hope that helps.

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A female reader, anonymous, writes (30 April 2011):

- no 'private' chats with guys

- emails: leave your laptop/computer unattended so if he wants to sneak a peak he can note that you are not up to something.

- don't hide your cell phone. Leave it lying around, no password

- not too much of girlie time away from him

- be patient.

- write him a letter telling him you are sorry and your regrets

- start counselling: for yourself

- he acts 'normal' , then what do you do? He has bought you flowers, phones you everyday still, what have you done to 'meet him halfway'?

- your kid? Who takes care of him?

- when last have you done something special for your hb?

- now those bloody driving lessons: can you now drive? Please don't tell me you did the dirty deed in the car or even worse in your own home.

It is important to know where "it" took place.

if you did it anywhere 'special' that means something to your hb, then you can kiss your hb goodbye.

- talk to someone who you trust: your sister? You need help to resolve this or else you will get more distressed.

Yes we all do not want to air our dirty linen in public but you need to "offload" these emotions. So therefore perhaps talk to your sister. She will be mad but then because she knows both you and your hb she can suggest ways to make amends.

- don't just say sorry. You have to mean it and live your life making up. Your actions were foolish. if he does throw you out, then you know why.

You messed up a good thing girl, meaningless sex with a 'driving teacher'- Hell No!!!

Any STDs? Get yourself checked up. Also your hb doesn't want to 'catch' anything from you, he visualises you with this man. I am curious HOW did your hb catch you cheating?

I don't know what else to tell you but time is a healer.

LoveGirl

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A female reader, Trinklett Canada +, writes (30 April 2011):

Trinklett agony auntYou sound remorseful. But does he see that in you? Let me suggest this. Everyday when he wakes up give him a sincere apology and ask him to forgive you. He needs to know, see and feel that you are truly sorry and will never repeat it. Try this for about a week. I hope that can help a bit otherwise you're going to have to wait for him to come around.

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A female reader, anonymous, writes (29 April 2011):

"...If I lose him, my life is over..." Stop being such a drama queen. Should have thought of this when you were cheating. Horrible, but true!

So now what happens?

Who knows of your affair?

When do you start counselling?

What are u now doing differently than before?

Are you sorry you cheated or are you sorry you got caught?

And lastly perhaps your hb is pretending that everything is 'normal' and soon he will spring his surprise. Have you thought of what you will do if your hb has a revenge affair? If he is as good a person as u say, then the likelihood of another snapping him up is a reality.

That deep wound you have inflicted on your hb will take months, if not years to 'heal'.

So be prepared for days where your marriage is unbearable and then days where it seems 'normal'.

From now on your hb will be watching you like a hawk and he will be monitoring all Your contacts and all your movements.

This is just the beginning of what is coming, the question is: Are u prepared for it??

LoveGirl

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A female reader, bure-bure United Kingdom +, writes (29 April 2011):

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Lovegal, my sister and parents don't know yet. I don't know how to break the news to them. My husband has been so diplomatic about it much as I know he is hurting. He is a kind of guy who doesn't like washing his dirty linen in public. Trust me, he is acting so normal and I am broken to pieces deep inside me.

Please, please, is there anything I can do people? I know you will help me save my marriage. My mum and sisters came around and they were all praises as he took time off work to hang around with them. He took them to different places to visit and they were really happy. I should say that he was rude to me only once in front of them but that was nothing big!

I am ready to go for counselling but I think this won't change anything at the moment. Please hellllllllllllllllllp, thanks.

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A female reader, anonymous, writes (29 April 2011):

Well you got your driving lessons, a lover and now have perhaps lost your hb. From what you say your hb is really a good decent guy and any woman will snatch him up.

Even if your hb decides to stay with you, he will not love you as before. He will not allow himself to be betrayed again.

What has your parents/sister said about your affair?

....I am sure now you wish you had the patience to let your hb teach you to drive instead of another man.

LoveGirl

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A female reader, bure-bure United Kingdom +, writes (29 April 2011):

bure-bure is verified as being by the original poster of the question

I know I betrayed my husband, but I still love him. I was so stupid, honestly he is a very nice man in every field.

My family worships him,my friends adore him and even when we were dating, my sister said if I dumped him, she wouldn't be ashamed to date him for herself.

This guy led me on while taking me for driving lessons, I resisted for a very long time till I finally gave in. Now I remember how my husband pleaded with me to be patient as he wanted to teach me driving by himself but I couldn't wait. If I lose him, my life is over!

About the flowers, I meant to say I said thank you but I was later ashamed of even mentioning it as I felt it wasn't enough. He is still acting normally even today as if I have never done anything like that to him. He is about to go to work, calls me when at work but never ends with sweet words like 'I love u' when he ends the call. Honestly, I deserve anything worse as a punishment as long as I don't lose him. Anyone out there who went through the same should help please?

Otherwise, I appreciate all your replies!!! Thank you very much.

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A female reader, Tbosse South Africa +, writes (29 April 2011):

Tbosse agony auntWhat you did is terrible to him. you erred.

expect the worst as you did the worst.

it's your turn to reflect on the pain you caused.

just keep apologising maybe 1day he'll see u as his wife, again.goodluck

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A female reader, anonymous, writes (29 April 2011):

The reason your hb behaves the way he does is bec you have betrayed him. He is deeply and sadly hurt and no amount of mere 'I'm sorry' will do. It is your actions that speak volumes and thus far you have done don the right thing. You did not

even have the decency to tell him 'thank you' for the flowers he gave you! So much for loving him! Right now you are all tears and feel like a victim. You are not! You deliberately lied to him and cheated on him, not once but twice.

The trust is gone and your hb is going through the motions. Plse realise that SEX is not going to solve your marital problems. And I think u foolishly believe that it will.

Men are almost silent when their hearts are broken and here, your hb is totally shattered by your betrayal.

Your hb caught you cheating, so u only stopped bec he caught you. U know this and your hb does as well.

Your hb is actually mourning the breakup of his relationship with you.he is mourning the death of his marriage as he sees it. Your attitude and your behaviour doesn't match your 'I'm sorry' words. Why did you cheat in the first place. Were you craving excitement, the forbidden sex? What were you seeking than you couldn't get from your hb? So ask yourself what did your lover provide that your hb couldn't? Did you even talk to your hb about what was missing in your marriage.

Communication is key in any relationship. So start talking. you need to also tell him you are sorry for the affair and not just saying sorry bec you were caught. Big difference!

You describe your hb as a gem, and from his actions I think he is. It is sad that u realise this too late.

Learn one thing in life: sometimes most often than not, we don't get second chances. And when we do we need to do everything in our power to right the wrongs. Thus far you have not!

What grates me is your audacity to not say 'thank you' when he gave you flowers. This told him that u do not appreciate him, do not value him and u certainly do not respect him.

How are u going to change bec it seems as though u still want this marriage. Well for starters change your attitude. Then haul your a$$ into a professional counsellors office and start personal therapy, get to the root of why you cheated. Your hb can join you later.

Right now the trust is gone and I don't know whether it will ever be attained again.what exactly do u want? That your marriage goes back to before you cheated/before you were caught? It won't! It will either improve or it will get worse.

What about your 2 year old? Have u thought about him? What's going to happen if your hb throws you out? This is a reality so keep this in mind.

Your hbs state of mind is not in a good place right now. And you cannot blame him! So what happens now? The waiting game starts- you cannot force him to talk to you about your cheating. You just have to wait and this is the killer.

I do not know how this will end for you but your actions have broken your hb. He is a good decent man and any other woman will be proud to have him but you had to learn this the hard way.was your cheating worth it? Hell No!

If you want a second chance then you need to earn it. How you achieve it I do not have the answers but stop crying your cry, and start working on your marriage.I repeat: you naively think that if your hb gives in to sex with you then all is well. If u still believe this then what lesson have you learnt?

Marriage is bloody hard work!

LoveGirl

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A female reader, birdynumnums Canada +, writes (29 April 2011):

birdynumnums agony auntFirst off; you are married and the mother of a two year old - you should not be dating!?!?!

Of course your husband is pissed.

He is Broken-hearted. You broke all your promises. To him. To the family you created. To your child.

And yet the whaaaaaa about your feelings.

Start thinking about HIS feelings and how to make it up to him. The first thing is TO NEVER CONTACT THE SLIMEBUCKET AGAIN.

Apologize.

Apologize again.

Apologize again.

Humble yourself.

Start to treat him the way that you would treat the love of your life. BE HIS GIRLFRIEND. Win back his love and this time - earn it and keep it.

Repeat.

Repeat again.

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A female reader, Precious jewel Nigeria +, writes (29 April 2011):

Precious jewel agony auntMy dear, the truth is that your husband dosen't trust you anymore. He get's real hurt anytime he finds out your cheating on him, so he is trying to guard his emotions by witdrawing some of the love he shows to you. You have to end everythin wit the other guy and make your husband trust you again, wit faithfulness and wit time ur husband will love and accept the marriage again. Goodluck and be patience

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A male reader, Burningleon United States +, writes (29 April 2011):

My girlfriend of two and half years once cheated on me to an extent. She made out with him but nothing more sexual than that and he initiated it with her. I was devastated and wasn't sure if I would be able to kiss her again. It seems like every kiss would be a reminder of what she had done. She was never willing to give up talking to this guy as he was her best friend. That was what I wanted most. Was for this guy to disappear and for her to prove her commitment to me. If you slept with this other guy than by trying to start something physical with your husband is possible just reminding him of what happened and making him wonder if you did that same thing to the other man. I recommended you find something special that you only do for your husband. If your fling was physical then it is likely you never held that other man in your arms which was something I desperately craved. I wanted to be held in her arms and told that I was the only man that she ever wanted to be next to her and that she was never going to let me go. That she was never going to hurt me again. You'll need to allow him to open his heart back up to you so you can rejoin your hearts and then you can work on rejoining your bodies. Take it slow with plenty of encouragement. I would avoid specifically mentioning that you wouldn't want to do the sexual things with your fling again. Instead try to make him feel special and loved without actually bringing up the painful memories.

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A female reader, Trinklett Canada +, writes (29 April 2011):

Trinklett agony auntYou cheated and he's hurting. I guess he's trying his best to make it work but still has issues to deal with. He may never trust you again and what you need to do now is to be watchful. Apologize to him sincerely and you should promise him this will never happen again - and keep to your word.

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A male reader, Cerberus_Raphael Sweden +, writes (29 April 2011):

Cerberus_Raphael agony auntHave you tried talking to him about it? Have you told him everything you have written here? If you have, then ask him, ask him what you can do to make him see you as his wife again.

While reading your whole post I was under the impression that he might actually just be forcing this guilt on you, out of a want for vengeance if nothing else. That is why he buys you flowers and yet never kisses you. You need to be careful.

Maybe this marriage is just too broken. This is only assuming he is toying with your emotions, even if that isn't the case, he doesn't kiss you and to be honest, its not hard to understand why, obviously there are trust issues and maybe I'm wrong about the whole manipulation aspect, maybe he is just unsure of everything that is happening and maybe out of a paranoia that you are still cheating on him. I'm sorry but in my opinion, the core of this marriage has been shattered and only a hollow shell remains, all you can do is divorce with respect and move on.

I hope that helps.

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