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writes:I'm a 57 year old divorced woman, mother of three children. Something happened 2 days ago that took me by complete surprise and I am still numb over it. My ex husband is younger than I am (50) and left me 3 years ago. I am still depressed, and were it not for my children I would have probably gone totally destructive on myself. I am also struggling with weight issues, I a very overweight and can't seem to stop eating or comfort-eating as they say. On Tuesday night my mother in law, who is very loving to our family and absolutely adores her grandchildren, came to spend the night as my son asked her to. She is 68 years old and very feminine, she likes to look after herself for her husband who is still active.We had a lovely dinner and lovely evening laughing and telling stories. At about 2 in the morning my children all went to bed and I set upon to prepare her nightgown and show her into our study room where there is a guest bed. As her gave her the nightgown she asked me in a changed voice: ''Janet, I want to sleep naked. '' I was totally confused as this kind of talk was new between us. At the same time, I felt a kind of warmth that I did not understand. I just stammered ''oh why of course, please feel free'', and took the nightgown away. As I wished her a good night I retired into my room. As soon as I took off my clothes and slipped my own nightdress I lay on the bed. Suddenly I start to caress myself and masturbate. I thought about her naked body and wonderful full breasts and tried to imagine what her pubis would be like. As I masturbated I imagined all sort of things between us like my mother in law nursing on my large breasts and yes, putting her tongue on my intimate love lips. My climax was something unbelievable. The next day I could not look her in the face. Since then I am going crazy. I am not a lesbian, although occasionally have surfed the web for women pics. Any advise or similar experiences would be appreciated.
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reader, TasteofIndia  +, writes (28 January 2007):
 "Dear Penthouse..."
just kidding. I think that "Anonymous" gave you some pretty solid advice. It kind of seems like you are comforted by her presence in your pretty hectic life. Three kids? Recent divorce? That must be alot for you to handle.
What goes on in our fantasies sometimes are KEPT in our fantasies. I've had plenty of weird, bizarre fantasties that made me feel creeped out by the pleasure I got out of them. Would I ever do them in real life? No. No. NO.
Lots of women get turned on by other women. Hey - women are pretty sexy. No, I wouldn't have sex with one in real life - but that doesn't mean I can't imagine doing it. The best sex you'll ever have is in your fantasies. No awkward moments, no expectations... everything goes perfectly.
I think you do need to find yourself sexy and beautiful again. I think the fact that you masturbate is pretty great in itself. Giving yourself pleasure can make you feel good about yourself. Next, I'd treat myself to a new haircut, a new shirt... maybe a manicure. Some superficial things can sometimes help in the journey to rekindling self confidence. You need to look into the mirror and smile to yourself. "I look INCREDIBLE today."
You're perfectly normal... and don't worry about your mother-in-law. She has no idea what was going on in your head. It's your little secret.
Good luck!
xxIndia
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reader, anonymous, writes (27 January 2007): ...Hmm, what you felt is completly natural, for one, your emotional for a numerous amout of reasons, including your weight and your recent seperation. The closeness you two have seems to be comforting. The fact that you two share an intimate relationship through conversation explains it all. You are comforted by her presents not necessarily that you are attracted to her because you are a lesbian, but the fact that she is attrative as well as comforting can stir up things inside you because maybe you would like to be attractive like her. Subconsciosly this may spark some arousal because you can not find the attration in yourself. Most women are attracted to other women at some point because of there softness and grace. We at times admire that qaulity in other women because we want it in ourselves and thinking about how soft and lovely she may be can lead to intimate warmth with in us. This does not mean were gay it just means we appreciate beauty just as much as anybody else does. Help yourself by finding sexiness within yourself.
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