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writes: Dear all, I guess I just want to share this with you and get your views. I checked my BF's of over a year and a halfs emails a couple of nights ago and he had emailed a girl saying hi babes, and then went on to say that she must remember him as he had slept with her about a year ago andthey had met off a dating site , and he would like to meet up and sleep with her again. ( it then went into lurid sexual details of what they did and what he wnated to do again)I was devastated. I confronted him with it and he said he met and slept with her before he met me, then he said he had come across her email and just emailed her.he also told me he is not good for me, and that I deserve more and that he does ot feel good enough for me. I asked him why he felt the need to do that and he said he did not feel the need and was acting sheepish, and I was crying, and I feel that he has been doing this all along as I have had my suspicions which were now proved right. I feel so bad and am really suffering and my work is suffering as i can never ever trust him again and ended it by email last night and told him he is dead to me, but I feel like hell and my work is suffering, and I am unable to function properly, plus he loves a few mins down the road from me which means I will bump into him at some point. he did not respond to the email and has not even attempted to apologise. I feel sick, nauseous and ill. Please help. I am so jealous and can;t belive he has betrayed me like this. xx
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reader, justmen +, writes (26 June 2012):
Two emotions appear to be troubling you. Jealousy and pain from betrayal. Both are normal. You were his sexual partner. Now he is with another. So you are hurting. It's OK to feel both emotions and anything in between. Let yourself stay with whatever feelings surface, whether they be angry, sad or something else. It's part of the process. And stop waiting for an apology. It won't happen. Waiting for an apology is a way of trying to stay engaged/connected with him/in the relationship.If he did what he did to you, he's not the apologizing type. He's a selfish and he feels he can take anything he needs and do anything he needs to do with total disregard for others.
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reader, Serpico +, writes (18 June 2012):
Dont waste another minute of your time on this guy. Be thankful you found out before marriage and move on.
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reader, So_Very_Confused +, writes (16 June 2012):
what's hurting you is the betrayal.
what's hurting you is the fact that you DID NOT SEE IT.
he betrayed you and destroyed trust and now you will NEVER trust again like you did... not anyone...
the anger you have is normal
your feelings are normal
do not take away from them...give yourself time to grieve and heal over this betrayal that will be with you FOREVER.
it sucks OP I know and I'm sorry.
try writing long letters that you never send... either burn them or put them away to read in a few years...
BE ANGRY
CRY
SCREAM
YELL
PUNCH PILLOWS
and write write write (if it's your thing.. it has always helped me)
but know that you will heal and move on in time.
you have this old lady's permission to feel gutted and sad and hurt and angry.
I really think that 6 weeks from now it will be a bit better.
the wound is still raw and open and gaping... give yourself time to grow a scab...
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reader, Discovery +, writes (16 June 2012):
"We had a strong emotional and sexual bond between us"
No. As painful as it is, don't delude yourself. Only you had a strong emotional and sexual bond to him. Not the other way around.
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reader, Datsun73 +, writes (16 June 2012):
What you should do is get over him he does not deserve you and don't look back either you are better than him the pain will fade in time but work on your self esteem and yourself
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reader, anonymous, writes (16 June 2012): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionDear all. Thank you for your kind answers. I am totally gutted and cannot sleep at night. I know it.s for the best in the long run that it.s over,but am having difficulty coming to terms with the fact he was probably cheating all along. We had a strong emotional and sexual bond between us, so i still can.t see why he felt the need,and is not trying to put things right after we had been together so long. In the last month, i had got stronger,and was detaching,and i think he sensed my unhappiness. He became controlling,and irritable,and was being witholding. I was becoming more confident again,and he didn.t seem to like that. I am finding it hard to digest that he didn.t care as much as i thought he did. He lives nearby me,so that makes it even harder,and i hate the fact of him having sex with other women,rather than me who was supposed to have been his girlfreind. My ego is smashed. How do i cope with these painful thoughts and feelings ? Thank you. X
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reader, anonymous, writes (15 June 2012): Don't let this be a reflection on you, look at the footballers who cheat on their beautiful girlfriends, your looks doesn't come into it. I don't know how a cheats mind works and tbh I don't think they do themselves! I can understand the jealousy because for so long it was just the two of you living happily. I cannot stress enough that this isn't a reflection on anything to do with you.
He may not be trying to apologise because he knows he was a d*** and possibly the kindest thing he could possibly be thinking is that you deserve better than him - so he is not contacting you.
Best wishes and luck to you in your future x
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reader, anonymous, writes (15 June 2012): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionHi So very Confused. yes, you are right, but I am jealous of him sleeping with other women... silly as it is. I have to get over that and move on. What I had with him was great sex, and intimacy and I feel let down and dissapointed. I kind of feel relieved in a funny way too, but am not yet to grips that he wants to and is sleeping with other women... it;s hurts when I think of that.xx
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reader, Ayan Ganguly +, writes (15 June 2012):
Dear, you need not feel jealous..you need to feel blessed...let your boyfriend's memories rest in hell...keeping them with you would do your soul no good...
What do you think,he apologises to you..you forgive him and you two live happily ever after..he would again go around sleeping with girls and would try to keep you in the dark..
All i can suggest you is,if you are hurt..cry all night long but chuck him out of your when you get up in the morning..he is not worth sparing a thought for...devote your time and attention on something better..Get it straight you are blessed that you got rid of him..take care..
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reader, oldbag +, writes (15 June 2012):
Hi
He's a lowlife who took the proverbial p**s out of you. He strayed,he was willing to do so again. You have done the right thing dumping him but I would have done it face to face or by phone. He won't apologise, he will just email her and push even harder for sex now he's free.
Its not a reflection on you, its just shown him up for who HE is. Just keep damn busy, cry,throw things do whatever you need to..then eventually you will be calm enough and not hurt so much. You know he's abused the trust you had and your better off without him.
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reader, Discovery +, writes (15 June 2012):
You did the right thing to end it on the spot. Don't second guess yourself on that. As for your awful feeling, just hang in there. It will pass =\.
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reader, Candycane1234 +, writes (15 June 2012):
I've been cheated on it's horrible but it's not your fault, not everybody will cheat on you, I wouldn't of known if I hadn't been told.
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reader, So_Very_Confused +, writes (15 June 2012):
Are you sure you are jealous? Jealousy is an emotion rooted and based in insecurity. Being strong and proactive and ending the relationship does not sound like an insecure woman at all.
you sound strong and positive.
you are probably hurt. and angry and feel betrayed and well you should.
people do things many times because they think they won't get caught.. then when they get caught they try to make it better with either... it's YOUR fault or "I'm not worthy" or some other such garbage.
you can't trust him
you are right you will never trust him
he's right you deserve better and he's not good for you
you will suffer and mourn for a while.
my gf and i give ourselves 6 weeks to get over a breakup...
you have 6 weeks to go makeup free, skip workouts, eat ice cream and obsess about him...after 6 weeks life has to move on.... you may not be totally healed but you will be in a better place...
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reader, anonymous, writes (15 June 2012): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionit also hurts that he has not even TRIED to apologies or make it up or anything. I don't even think he feels bad.
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reader, anonymous, writes (15 June 2012): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThanks Xlauren x. it really hurts, and I am wondering why he had to do it, as he always siad he did not need to do it, as I am enough for him in all ways. I don;t know what changed. it's made me feel less confident and that i was not good enough for him sexually or in some other way. he must have just got bored of me I guess.
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reader, anonymous, writes (15 June 2012): It's all about you. Stop being a http://www.dearcupid.org/pages/answer-guidelines.html
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reader, anonymous, writes (15 June 2012): At least you know the kind of guy he is now, rather than any further on in a relationship. I am very sorry you are feeling this way and I can't imagine how tough day to day life is at the moment but things will get better.
No one has the right to risk a partners health and by sleeping with people randomly off of dating sites doesn't say much for him or the person he is meeting. At least you found out through emails and not because he has given you an STI or worse.
Reconnect with friends and family more and keep yourself busy, distracting yourself and keeping busy will help time pass quicker and as time goes on your hurt will become less. If you happen to bump into him saying "Hi" and carrying on your day is probably the best option.
Stay strong, he's already ruined the relationship please don't let his actions impact any more of your life.
X
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