LIFE

A male age 51-59, esepalo1 writes:

Ther are so many life lessons ive learned threw the years like what it does carrying you drunk dad threw the streets trying to get him home. Feeling embarresed what people were gonna say about your dad. Getting drunk saying i hate you all at the age of 11.Then mom meets a new man and i feel like he took my mom away the only one at the time i could turn to. Well moms so in to new man im gone till 1am not worried about me for so long i felt alone ate at other friends house.Living in 1 bed room house my room was the living room.Hearing mom have sex while im awake needing to pee but cant becuase bathrooms by moms room.Then i get a baby brother that totally voids me out of the loop since that wasnt my real dad so happy family mom-dad-baby bro.All my life everything i was in no one would show up base ball no one /karate no one.This is all at the age of 11-13.All that were there for me was my grandma and aunt with i love for the rest of my life.Lets fast forward to high school mid high was a blur.Had issues with my self in high school tried to commiy suicide girl problems not happy with self at the time do to my past wanted help no one listen to busy with them selves.what to suicide and depression hospital really found out i had nothing on the people in there wow.In a gang at 13 ran the streets got in trouble.If it wasnt for two awsome teachers being there for me and seeing past the bad ass and seeing a broken hearted individual/child needing a little hug or little hi or just that hey you special i would be dead or prison.Graduated yes later on that night celebrate get shot twice in back two broken ribs punctured lung splean crushed.Lying there like a movie telling my cousin i love him not knowing if im gonna live blood gushing out my mouth and back thinking im dreaming.in hospital tubes every where.for the longest time i never thought any one knew me or cared very wrong they had to put a security gaurd at my high school and hospital soooooo many people heard and went to see me the whole school.Ok back while in my room they guy that shot me his cousin was there to finish me really i know this seams like big time movie but its not all real.Mom dad all there while in rehab trying to get better dad drunk telling me i shoud die because i couldnt do my breathing excercise.Stay a month and a half in hospital.Get out stay in bed restless nights having flash bach to this day i still do im 32.Go to court he gets 2and a half Years hahah the judicial system sucks you sell drugs you get life.I get a settle ment of 10,000 lawyer get 4,000 fine two yrs later.Girl friend at the time pregnant money come perfect timing.Wel i tell my mom hey ill give you half she says no i want 4,000.No way half im having a baby nope gat out she tells me and i want my money .I say if im leaving im taking everything she tells me when the baby is born im not the grandma.Wow big blow to me and girlfriend say fine.14 yrs later married to the most greatest thing god could of giving me she has delt with me with the good and bad made me see there is more to life and set goals and achive them something i was never tought from anyone made me want better in life and tells me i am some body.And look at life different by getting shot and everything in my life i know everything happens in life for a reason and ive learned and seen alot .Life is so precious to me i will never take anything for granted life is short i dont need any body approval but gods.All in all life has been great but never want to visit the past.The mistake ive made in my life i dont want my daughter to make i dont want to be like my parents im at every game i tell her i love her 9 millions times a day i tell her dont be like me be better then me and she is special and valuable and to respect her self.You cant change the past but you can the future.So live life to the fullest and enjoy life because tomarrow may never come.If you have some special dont take them for granted or life for granted because it can be gone in a flash.:) PS:Stop and smell the roses life go by and we dont even realize it.

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