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writes:i am in a relationship with a very charming and beautiful woman who is my classmate in the university and also a ex-colleague in a modelling agency. she's bisexual, and i was straight before i met her..it wasnt too difficult for us to get together.she made me fell in love with her so deeply.. and everything i see in her is so perfect. so one night i invited her to my place to watch a movie..we drank..and i just put my head on her shoulder and told her how i feel for her..she said she felt the same and we started kissing..that was when i had sex with a woman for the first time.i was a very judgemental homophob in the past (i am sorry).. and was surprised on how easily i accepted the feelings i have for her. i dont mind holding her hand or kissing her in the public..or tell the people around that we are in a relationship.i am very proud of us..and her..because she's so gorgeous--probably the most beautiful woman walking on this earth (that was why i was attracted to her initially).can't believe she had picked me too!!!but recently i found out i have a problem..with myself. i cant help thinking of her all the time, even when we were in the same lecture room. i couldnt concentrate in class anymore.we see each other everyday..sometimes when we dont, i'd keep calling/texting her and making sure we get in touch all the time. she hasn't point out this problem..yet.. and i feel she's gonna bring this up soon. honestly..i find it weird myself. i think i am obsessed with my girlfriend. i want to talk to her about it but im so scared she'll have bad ideas like staying away from me or call me fewer each day..so that i could concentrate on my school work. i love her and i can't live without her.. sometimes when i see her talking to other girls/guys i feel extremely jealous and would just go up to her and hold her hand in front of those people. i know she's very popular in school..everybody just wants to hit on a beautiful blonde like her. she's my baby and my everything. i even have thoughts about having babies with her. and, i dont even think i hve the strength to live if she ever leaves me...:(please dont advise me to look for a counsellor, because i did and it wasnt helpful. any self-help methods to get out of this obsession i have for my girlfriend? or is it normal to be obsessed with your lover?? please help me before things get worse...i cant control myself!
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reader, kurayami3nobara  +, writes (16 December 2008):
You're in love, dear. It makes me miss my own girlfriend(I'm like you are, to an extent). I wish you well.
If you're really nervous, I'd ask her if it's bothering her. :3
You're lucky.
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reader, petina1  +, writes (15 December 2008):
 I just think you are deeply in love. It's nice that she isnt trying to stop you from been attentative to her, some straight couples may find that rather flattering. If she isnt objecting then she probably likes it that way. Just mention it to her, say ' I'm not been too obsessive with you am I because I will hold back if I am because I don't want to do anything to jeapordise our relationship' Simply talk to her about it. If you really think she is going to bring this up soon and you really are worried that she may back off, then back off before it gets brought up to a certain extent.
Just enjoy this life you've got and I wish you both well for the future.
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