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writes:I don't really like myself, even at the age of 20 and when I'm at university. Last night I left my friends at a bar as I was depressed because I hate myself. I even had a conversation with my dad earlier on today about how I should like myself and that I should take one step at a time.I know now that there is something mentally wrong with me. I just can't get out of this depression and the knowledge that I hate myself. The latter has had an impact on my friends in that I sometimes take things too far. Thats if to say they still see me as a friend.What should I do as I have run out of options from talking to my parents to talking to a counsellor.
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reader, Miss. Understood  +, writes (18 February 2011):
 I am new to this but I have always felt depressed since third grade thats when I COULD REMEMBER. I was always being teased back then. I was being called ugly and never felt like I was of any different. Then later on thru the years I stop feeling like that. But the past few years things inside me have just been shutting down. I am now 24 years young and when I get angry I see where I take it out on my daughter by yelling at her because of being fustrated with my boyfriend or something else. I just want to be happy but being called fat and things I see don't make me feel no better about myself. I can honestly say I pretend to thinjk of myself as pretty but under all my skin i wear I don't feel like that. i have seeked help but I feel as if am being judged rather then helped. i tried the med's the hosptial gave me but that wasn't for me. i know people say hangin out socializing with friends and just relaxing my help out but when my friends better yet co-workers ask me to hang out i alwasy make up so type of excuse to not go. being depressed isn't a joke. i have threatened to kill myself and also have tried with the med's the hosptial gave me. but i can't jus kill myself. it's like my body knows i am not to do that so it's kind of hard to succeed in that mission. so i always find myself hurt or upset to myself. scared to express myself cuz i know people will judge i tired it.. for some reason talkn face to face to someone didnt work. so i figured talkn over the web would b cuz no one can see me to judge me. another thing i lost my mother at the age of 12 and barely met my father .. so i tend to think alot bout things like that, i am not perfect so don't judge me .....
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reader, anonymous, writes (22 August 2009): Hey you,
I'm a 21 year old college student and I'm going through a similar situation. I have not liked myself or who I am becoming for the last 8 months or so. My trigger was sudden bad financial problems that ended up with not being able to pay rent. A bunch of other problems stemmed from that, and I found myself depressed after only a few weeks.
However, I have been going to counseling on and off for the past 5 months. I have found that as long as you're honest with your counselor, it is very helpful. The counseling session allows you to put all of your issues and problems out in the open, and get some constructive feedback.
A positive attitude is the best thing we can do for ourselves. It seems difficult, but practice makes it easier.
Just hang in there. I'm trying to do the same. Good luck!
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reader, windowlyn +, writes (14 June 2009):
Hi. My name is renee. I've been reading the comments. First off, depression is something that can be genetic, a chemical "imbalance of the brain". Sometimes people don't understand that it is not something that can be shookin off. If you know or feel depressed the best thing to do first is to see a doctor..after that, if meds are needed, take them. During that time find out who you are and how your body works i.e. your brain. Next, while on meds you will have strength to do things like take walks etc. Learning what your body needs to "not be depressed" will help you. Usually u need "assistance" via meds to start this.
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reader, anonymous, writes (23 May 2008): Hi there.
I totally understand you. I've done the same things only to have friends think that I'm being anti-social or snobby when people don't understand that sometimes it's not just something you can "snap out of." You need to find the good qualities in yourself. Your friends like you for some reason. Maybe you're a good listener, or you're there for people when others aren't. Take comfort in that you have something that someone else can't offer. You're not alone. You're fortunate you have someone to talk to.
Please, if you're not feeling better PLEASE seek some medical help. You are not alone and you did the right thing in reaching out - there is help. Take it.
Sincerely,
JS
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reader, anonymous, writes (17 May 2008): Hi I feel much the way you do . As I get older life has not gotten easier but I do have lots of good memories…life with my family and now wife and kids…I try to give more than I take but it is hard. I get down often and it is hard to not want all you see the world has to offer. My wife is ill with diabetes for 20 years now. It does not get better but I think I’m getting stronger…dealing with the ups and downs…she has been in the hospital 2 times in 6 months …were only in our 40’s I don’t know what our 50’s and older will bring….I see and talk with people about retirement and it is hard to think that far. No one knows what tomorrow will bring. It scares the shit out of me…just today my wife had low blood sugar and it was hard bringing It up…I find myself doing mother and father rolls…I have to be there for my kids 17 and 10 years old .Believe me I ask why its so tough each day…I get no answers I just think I’m getting prepared for tougher times to come…life is still good …hang in there…I don’t like myself either I’m 45
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reader, anonymous, writes (22 April 2008): Hi sweetie. I'm depressed today so I googled "I'm depressed today" and found your post. Hope you are feeling better.
I used to be depressed ALL THE TIME when I was your age. Life get's easier and better as you get older, I promise. But I started taking paxil about 10 years ago and it changed my life. It's not for everyone and they have newer versions of it so you should consult a dr.
Also, I don't mean to sound like a freak but check out "the Secret". The production is a bit goofy but the message is life altering. I am usually overjoyed every day for all of my blessings. Today is the first time I've been depressed in as long as I can remember. So unusual I googgled it. I actually have a reason to be glum. I got a rejection letter from a publisher and some woman annoyed me, but I not digging it I need to get happy.
I'm sure you're a smart handsome young man. Hope you feel better.
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reader, anonymous, writes (19 April 2008): Don´t feel like that, I´m sure you are a nice person that just needs a friend to talk to.
cheer up! :)
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reader, Laura1318  +, writes (16 January 2008):
 You should not be too judgmental on yourself. Learn to forgive your own self. We are all born into this world for a purpose.It is the little things in our daily life which can make us happy .
Give a thought about others who are less fortunate. Do not think of self but others and what can you do for them to make a better place to live in.
You have one more option, talk to God.
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reader, rcn +, writes (16 January 2008):
 first of all you need to really understand your depression and yourself. I choose to call depression "off balance". If you're lacking socially, emotionally, spiritually, physically can all cause depression. Lack of exercise can cause depression. A recent test was done in the U.S. where they took people with depression and had them walk for exercise a bit each day. After a couple of days their neurotransmitters were reacting the same as if they were taking one of the popular antidepressants, without the negative side affects.
In life, we get busy. Lets take a desk job for instance. Not much at work exercise. We get home, fix dinner, watch a tv show, go to bed then back to the beginning the next day. That lack of exercise can throw our system off balance which can cause depression.
Go to a health food store and get yourself some St. Johns Wort. It's an herbal mood stabalizer. This will improve how you feel. Next work out a plan to get back in balance. I use the system of listing my roles. My role at school, at work, as a parent, my physical health, etc. Then I schedule time each week to focus on each. I even schedule the time I take walks with my kids, play a game or go to the park. That is reserved time and uninterrupted. I allows us to do what life can get in the way of and we can make excuses not to do, and blame it on being busy. The problem is, as you notice the categories I listed, if one area is off balance, that will affect all other areas then none of them will be truely fulfilled.
Good luck. I hope this helps you. Take care.
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reader, elliebellie +, writes (15 January 2008):
hi hun!
ive been going through this. youre lucky that your parents understand. its only my dad that has a slight inclination that somethings up. did something happen a while back? or did you go through an unhappy time in your life? i find certain things trigger it. im sorry i cant give you more advice, but at the moment im trying to find things to make me feel less depressed. im still wondering whats going on inside me.
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ellie
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reader, anonymous, writes (15 January 2008): Hi Hunny,
When did this depression start? can you remember if at the time something set it off. As sometimes a simple unkind word to someone may start a spiral of thoughts and you can end up very depressed and not caring or liking yourself for a reason you may not even remember about. What is it love you dislike about yourself? I believe we are all special in our own way.. If your days are like this and this continues it wont get any better untill you find the root cause of the problem. You are at uni what are you studying? You must have worked hard to get where you are and have ambitions in life thats a possitive thing, You spoke to your dad so you can openly talk with your family thats another possitive in your life, When you talk to a councellor it may seem at times your not getting anywere as their time is taken by many people so after your hour its see you next week and it may feel you are getting knowere and also some counsellors leave and you may be pushed from one to another so it also feels as if the system is failing you. But as long as you have faith in yourself sweetheart thats all that matters and thats what you need to achieve, This is hard when your down I no but its not impossible or I wouldnt be sitting here talking to you right now. Not one person can make you like yourself you have to do that, And to do that you have to understand your own worth and believe me you are worth so very much, Talk to your dad talk to your counsellor and try and get to the root of this unhappy feeling inside of you. It may take longer than you would like and you may get angry and frustrated but you dont like feeling this way so deep down its not you, I hope this helped a little PLEASE TAKE CARE WITH LOVE AND PEACE MANDY xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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