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*elp my heart 1970
writes:hello , i'm a 38 year old guy living in nashville ,tn and i've been divorcedever sence i was 30 , i have had some brick walls to climb over toget where i am today i went to two boarding schools when i was younger and got pstd i was rapped by the students for 3 years, and the list gose on ihad to get on drugs just to get byso i had alot to climb over . i could not bring myself to ever tell my wife what happened to me. and i've been waiting for god to send me my true soul-mate the one that feels the way i do true love last for-ever but i havn't found her i can't live the rest of my live alone . i've preyed to god that if he want's me to live alone please take me now i would rather go home to christ now than live alone . i want to cry , i want todie . i don't want my body to just live i want my heart to fly with my wife . i'm not really living but just breathing (why) yes i have depreesion and i'm on meds but how much longer do i have to live like this? thank you.
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reader, anonymous, writes (12 November 2008): This for *A male age 36-40, Help my heart 1970*
I Pray above all things today that you will feel the love of God.
I will never know how much pain you are in but in some respects I can relate to your desperation. It breaks my heart to think that you feel that you are going through this on your own. Jesus says in the book of John 10;
27My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. 28I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one can snatch them out of my hand. 29My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all[d]; no one can snatch them out of my Father's hand. 30I and the Father are one."
I chose this scripture as it is talking about life and security of knowing that God has a life for you to live and not just exsist in. You are in the hands of One that is greater than all meaning all men as well as ALL forms of evil opperssion. He is greater than ALL the sum totals of your very cruel past, He is greater than ALL the feelings of hopelessness that you feel and He is saying you are planted in HIS hand.
I wish I could do something about your past but I can't, however God can and through His word and the comfort of His people He can heal you.
I say through His word and the comfort of His people because you cannot do this by yourself. Many people say that time heals all wounds but it does not only Jesus Christ, our Holy Father and the Holy Spirit can.
I suffer with depression also due to things that happend in my childhood and subsequently and I have up and down days, in fact the only way I came across this was when i typed into google "I can't live this way any more" and it brought me here! I am not on medication as I have a son and I don't like the side effects of it and how it makes me feel too out of it.
People often think me selfish in my behaviour and I really don't want to be the way that I am but unless they have been here they will never really get it.
However over the past few weeks I started going to to a church where yet again no one seemed to understand but yet just being there and not having to talk if I don't want to, but when I do there is someone to listen and this has brought me comfort and I can't explain why but it has- I can only put it down to the Spirit of God that is present when Children of God gather together.
Don't get me wrong He is present even if you are on your own but that presence is stronger when more are gathered together.
We have a God of ALL comfort as we are told in 2 Corinthians 1:3-7. Believe it or not He God loves you and is longing to reach you where you are and if you can just lift your head and look up and tell Him you need Him (Jesus) He will not ignore you. But please don't do as we seem to which is not to open your mouth to Him.
I'm not sure about you but when I am heading down I tend not to speak to anyone literally and find myself doing the same with God and hard as it is to open your mouth don't keep it shut at least cry to Him- the results are truly supernatural.
Also ask Him where you should be going to Church as I don't belive that just any church will do. There is a place specifically for you where there is the help that you need and where too when you are strong you can be that help to someone else, because I believe that you are going to be strong one day.
I too am praying for my rightful partner but I also realise that as I am I may just be too much for anyone to cope with and I don't wish to be a burden but a support to my mate.
Know that I am praying for you and love you dearly in Christ.
Come to me all you that are heavy laiden and burdened and I will give you rest Matthew 11:28
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reader, anonymous, writes (23 October 2008): There's always Hope.
God hears your prayers, and He can carry you through this. Do you have a spirit-filled church in your area to get some companionship and support? That's very important for you right now.
Keep your mind in motion with hobbies, interests, music to uplift your spirit.
Please free yourself from your past and look to your future. You can do it. Make a list of things in your life you are thankful for. Thank God for these things, and ask Him for guidance everyday. Take Care, and I'll say a prayer for you today.
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reader, amybaby  +, writes (22 October 2008):
 sweetheart, i really feel for you.
this is such a hard situation, i want to answer to your even though i cant give much advice..
i'm not in the same situation as you are and i cant begin to understand how your feeling. the only thing i could suggest is going to the doctors for medication, which you already have done. maybe you should try moving on and finding somebody else, you could try one of those dating websites to start off with to boost up your convidence and if it dont feel right then maybe in time something will.
have you talked to your ex wife about your situation, you cant garentee getting back together again of course but maybe seeing her might do something for you?
i hope your okay x
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reader, Emilysanswers +, writes (22 October 2008):
Hi this question really should have been rejected by moderators as you have mentioned suicide. We can't help you because you clearly have an illness and need medical help to get through this before you even think about sorting out the emotional stuff.
I can't just tell you that it's all going to get better on 8th October 2009 and that you have to suffer till then. It doesn't work like that.
Please get the help you need and get yourself out there.
Good Luck!! xx
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