Him watching porn is a side to him I don't know and I don't like it!

A female age 36-40, anonymous writes:

Basically, I have the best boyfriend, soon to be fiancee but I hate him wanking to porn. I have never been bothered in past relationships but I think because we are so close I hate the fact he hides it from me. I feel it's a side to him I don't know at all and it upsets me. I didn't expect him to give it up but he said on his own that he would use his 'imagination' so it wouldn't upset me...after that I realised his history was deleted and asked him about it. He swore on my life he hadn't watched it but he had which upset me... Anyway after that I wrote him a letter to say why exactly it upset me and asked if we could watch it together and we have, twice which we both liked and I was under the impression we could watch it together so it wouldn't upset me. Well I found out that he had been individually deleting the web pages which I didn't realise you could do. I feel really betrayed now as he knew I knew what he'd be up to if he cleared the history and did that instead, lying to me. He is too shy to watch it with me it seems, won't talk to me about what he likes and I feel he lies to me. I feel like what's the point (even though he is perfect in every other way). I don't know if I'm over-acting but i can't help this upsetting me. I feel so depressed and spent last night crying. He says I'm over-reacting.. Also.. I wonder what is so bad that he must delete it each time. I saw that one day it was just 'facebook' so clearly something on there was so bad he had to delete it. It plays on my mind so much (my last boyfriend emailed loads of girls saying how sexy they were etc and now i feel i can't trust and all guys are the same. I wonder if I'd be better off alone...

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