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*orbiddenlovebutnoregrets
writes:Me and Chris are best friends. We know each other so much and we shared lots of things. and I was attracted to him but then i just kept it to myself. He is married by the way. The story starts here...he fell in love with another girl (SAM) and he told me to befriend this girl. So I did. And so there's three of us being friends. One time, SAM told me that she don't know what to do that she felt guilty already being with my guy best friend since he is married already. But then, she loves him too but not to sure about her feelings. So i gave her some advice on what to do. She confided everything to me.Then, we graduated from college and probably communication between Chris and Sam stopped or what. I heard nothing about Sam. I was there all the time with him like we used to do way back in college. Then all of a sudden I was shocked that he told me that he loves me. That he felt something for me which shocked me alot. So i assumed that him and Sam broke up. But there 2 reasons running on my mind saying why I shouldn't give. 1st was he married and 2nd, i dont know what happened and it might upset the girl. However, I have strong feelings towards him that I have been keeping my entire life. When he asked the question if we can be more than friends.. I was left unanswered and only my heart started to answer back. Damn! I gave in despite the reasons. I was so selfish an so inlove with him. I just grabbed the opportunity by that moment. So...we had an intimate relationship..we shared everything..lust... and all that stuff. I forgot everything. It was the happiest moment of my life. Then Sam came back and saying that the guy still loves her. That broke my heart into pieces.. but I did not freak out. I remained calm and faithful...stupid... it was done over and over again...every time when we are together (the 3 of us) they are so close to each cuddling and I am left in the corner talking to myslef and keeping the pain inside me. I had so much patience. I cried inside a lot of times seeing them together. But i had no choice but to shut up so not to ruin everything. At the end of the day, Chris would say I'm sorry and comfort me. But one night I got fed up and I confronted him told him that I had to let go since I was the last person to enter the scene so as not to break the friendship and break the girl's heart. But he told me not to let go. We kept the relationship from Sam..and from his wife...(his wife didn't matter to me...ahaha.. i was more scared with the girl)So now I am so trapped in this relationship. Uncertain if he loves me real or what. But I know I love him so much. However, it is not right.. because I have been a traitor to Sam.. and to his wife..i kept it inside for 2 years. Chris and I are still together. And he sometimes tells me that Sam doesn't text anymore...my god.. I think she is still in love with her.AM I THE MOST DUMB PERSON AND MOST SELFISH PERSON IN THIS WORLD???WHAT AM I GONNA DO???HOW DO I TELL CHIS THAT WE SHOULD END IT? WITHOUT GIVING GAPS BETWEEN US? WITHOUT BREAKING THE FRIENDSHIP?HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO STOP WHAT I FEEL??? I STILL LOVE HIM SO MUCH....HELP ME........please....
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reader, Forbiddenlovebutnoregrets +, writes (1 March 2011):
Forbiddenlovebutnoregrets is verified as being by the original poster of the question as of the moment.. I have been trying to ready myself for the end of it. I know this won't last. What I am looking forward to still.. is being friends with him...
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reader, anonymous, writes (1 March 2011): As of the moment.. I am preparing myself for the outcome... If we will part, I have "programmed" myself to let it go..let him go... I told him once that if he thinks that we should end it...he just have to tell me... so i will be ready to go away..
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reader, shanana +, writes (25 February 2011):
wow.... Sounds like you are getting played! You've got to stop sleeping with him for one. You can't stop what you feel you must learn to hold back your feelings, until he is DIVORCED. Eventually you won't have such strong feelings for him. If it were me, I'd find a new man, one of your very own. I think it helps let go of the previous one.
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