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writes:I never thought I knew what the word 'agony' meant until I left my girlfriend of three and a half years. Something so simple and pure...and I destroyed it in one afternoon. All she ever wanted from me was love. She gave more than I did, and asked for so little in return...just my love and attention. Why was it so difficult? I don't know.In life all human beings have the capability of doing something terrible to someone else. Some have it within them to do these terrible things on purpose, others do these things without thinking their decisions through carefully...and others, like me, do terrible things because they are running on tattered emotions and they aren't thinking about what they are doing. Really at one time or another everyone has fit into one of those catagories and it usually ends the same everytime...heartbreak.I thought she had cheated on me and there were some other little hurts, some medium sized hurts and a couple of big hurts along the way that all added up to me leaving and running into the arms of a much younger woman. But in the end I realized none of it mattered. All that mattered was that I had in my grasp pure true love and I let it go. I realized right within a week what I had done...but she had already found a nice guy to help with her hurt. I tried to tell her I loved her, that I realized her worth and what a stupid mistake I had made...but now it is all messed up and I am left with regret. I believe now in true love, I believe in soul mates, I believe in that story book romance that trancends all understanding and rationale. I believe. Now, in the end here I can only hope that she believes too. If not then I will have to pick up the shattered pieces of my heart and walk away. It's in her hands now. I just wonder if anyone in the world believes that people can change if they want to, and if true love is real? I know I do...she taught me that.
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reader, Girly123  +, writes (19 June 2009):
This is only a moment in time where everything seems to stand still and the pain is agonizing because time can't pass by slower.
Just remember "Good things fall apart so that greater things can fall together. - Marilyn Monroe
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reader, anjie +, writes (17 June 2009):
Define love? Is it a deep emotional attachment to someone? Feelings of deep lose when that someone is no longer there? Is love what you get or what you give? I think most people view relationships as a two step love. 1) How I want you to love me- I want you to forever be patient, kind, and honest with me, over look my faults, have eyes only for me, be an enduring friend/lover no matter what. 2)How I want to give love back- I'll be patient until you drive me nuts, I'll be kind until you say that hurtful thing to me, I'll be honest except when it might be painful to tell the truth, I'll over look your faults until one day they are too numerous to count, I'll only have eyes for you as long as I'm not placed into temptation, I'll be an enduring friend and lover until my need to end the relationship supercedes the need to endure it.
I think we all want to receive unconditional love but we, honestly, rarely want to give it. I'm sad by your story because I know you and she will carry deep scares from the brokeness of your relationship. My hope for you is 2Cor. 13. tells about how to love. My hope for you is that when a new relationship forms (hopefully for reconciliation) that you will be stronger about your convictions regarding love and wiser. Best wishes for the healing of a broken heart.
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reader, Vickett0410 +, writes (17 June 2009):
 Awwh :) that really is sweet. :)
Well, at the moment she is really hurt by the sounds of it, probably just as much if not more than you. So when it all settles down, if your truly meant to be then she'll come back to you.
It's my oppinion that true love can conquer anything, and it may take time. But. If she loves you as much as you love her then she wont be able to live with the gap in her heart, the you shaped gap :). She'll come back if you truly are soulmates.
But, also. You have to understand that what you did to her really hurt her. And that, maybe she's scared to love you again. I know I would be. But at least you accept you made a mistake I guess.
hope I helped.
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reader, anonymous, writes (15 June 2009): I found this really moving, and quite sad too. Almost poetic. But I like the way you still manage to make some positive points shine through, like how you have learned what love is.
I hope that, like all story book romances and fairy tales, you get that happy ending. But even if it doesn't work out that way, then to answer your question, yes, I believe that true love is real. I also believe that it can go on, that you can keep on loving someone even if you are apart from them, and that it can still touch them on some deeper level. And that it is worth it in the end. x
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