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writes: Good evening/morning...I have a feeling I might regret this, but I wish to share some of my thoughts in the form of questions with the rest of the member-base, out of being semi-anonymous. ^o^As I age, I feel more and more distant to common society, as I become more and more 'aware' of the mechanics of social protocol and the individuals that require some form of approval from common society and the sub-communities within it. It is 'automatic' that I can detect the agendas of people as individuals, as a whole, as organizations, within a certain aspect of society and this has become a curse. Being aware is a curse I think. I constantly am able to read people. Those that have met with me in person would often ask, "How did you know that?" I feel more and more distant. It seems as though I live for the sole purpose of seeing the security and welfare of my parents through. It feels as though my life was created for that purpose alone - spiritually that is. I do not align myself with a religion nor a god or gods, but I do have an unlabeled spiritual relationship with the universe, to say the least. My questions are:1) How do you live within a society or community, as you grow distant from it?2) Would you try to lie to yourself, create illusions to try to integrate yourself to the community around you?3) Even though you are nearly-completely aware of the world around you and layers and the connections within them, how do you NOT make yourself a 'martyr' and more towards a person within society?4) How would you 'find' and/or accept happiness if another human individual offered it to you? 5) And the most 'honest' of all these questions: how do you live, knowing that one day, your most loved ones will die off before you do - the ones closest to you? I am very protective of my parents and nearly 'worship' them as gods. I may rebel from time to time, but they are the only legitimate gods I recognize. Reply to this Question
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 September 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionCelestial, I have not forgotten you. I will answer your comment in the near future. I'm involved in some stressful projects right now and would require more mental energy to fully give concentration to your words.
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reader, celestial  +, writes (26 August 2009):
1) How do you live within a society or community, as you grow distant from it?
-aha! my friend, there are as many communities as there are different life forms on the earth! Yes, there is even communities for people that feel distant from it all. You feel distant from the one that you know, because you do not belong there. It doesn't make you happy. So find the one that does. So, what if you don't belong to a automated corporate world filled with automated responds (zombified society). Find the one you belong even if you have to go in the middle of the jungle to live with a tribe if this make you feel like you belong. Hehe, cosplay & vampire communities for me ; ).
2) Would you try to lie to yourself, create illusions to try to integrate yourself to the community around you?
-No, you can't never lie to yourself. If you do you become anxious from the battle bewtween your mind and your heart.
3) Even though you are nearly-completely aware of the world around you and layers and the connections within them, how do you NOT make yourself a 'martyr' and more towards a person within society?
-Connections make you intelligent, but one can never be intelligent enough. This is not about knowing is about humility. Can't you realize that your hurt comes from the wish to belong somewhere. Do not be so arrogant as to think society is a predefined conception. Society is what everyone makes of it. You can change it. You can write. You can influence others to think. Hell, you can start your very own community.
4) How would you 'find' and/or accept happiness if another human individual offered it to you?
-With a smile filled with warmth.
5) And the most 'honest' of all these questions: how do you live, knowing that one day, your most loved ones will die off before you do - the ones closest to you? I am very protective of my parents and nearly 'worship' them as gods. I may rebel from time to time, but they are the only legitimate gods I recognize.
-As long that you will remember them they will never die. Dead is a part of life. Only someone that has known pain can know how much it can liberate your from pain. If you would live for 200 years, wouldn't you wished to take a long well deserved rest?
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