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writes:When I was around 12 years old I remember humping my little sister's legs a few times. She is 6 years younger than me, I remember one time she asked me to do it (she thought it was a game), realizing what I was doing was wrong and feeling ashamed I immediately stopped and never did it again. Now I am 28 yrs old and have never spoke of this but I have immense guilt because I am worried that she remembers or feels tramatized? Am I a sick person? Reply to this Question
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 April 2010): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThank you everyone for responding. To the people that suggest I talk to my sister I feel that, that could be the worst thing I could do. Why would I risk telling her something she probably doesn't remember just to make myself feel better, I think that would be so selfish. i do talk about it with my husband who laughs at me for feeling so guilty. Instead of being selfish and seeking forgiveness from her I will seek help to feel better from this website and from my deep personal relationship with my husband. Thank you for all of your responses, they brought tears to my eyes and overall helped me to feel better.
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 April 2010): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThank you everyone for responding. To the people that suggest I talk to my sister I feel that, that could be the worst thing I could do. Why would I risk telling her something she probably doesn't remember just to make myself feel better, I think that would be so selfish. i do talk about it with my husband who laughs at me for feeling so guilty. Instead of being selfish and seeking forgiveness from her I will seek help to feel better from this website and from my deep personal relationship with my husband. Thank you for all of your responses, they brought tears to my eyes and overall helped me to feel better.
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 April 2010): This made me laugh. ... Off all the things to regret in life and make you feel like a sick person... lol.
Don't give it another thought. Enjoy life. :)
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 April 2010): You are fine. Kids sometimes do inappropriate things. If she thought it was a game she probably doesnt even remember it anyway. So you are beating yourself up over nothing. Stop worrying about it.
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reader, C. Grant  +, writes (21 April 2010):
 Most people have things that they cringe over, memories of bad things from a great long time ago. Sometimes those memories take on a life of their own. Sounds like you've got one stuck in your head.
Society doesn't hold 12 year old people responsible for their actions. And for good reason. Too much is happening in your world, and the changes are difficult to deal with.
You did something that today you know was wrong. If you did it now, you'd be held accountable. That you did it then is not unusual. It sounds like you did no harm. Honestly, hanging on to the memory seems more harmful than what you did as a child.
That you're ashamed says you're a good person. Chances are your sister has no recollection of the incident -- regardless at age six she couldn't possibly have understood your motivation. In other words, the guilt you carry is almost certainly yours alone. She thought it was a game; if she remembers the incident at all, she recalls it as a game. Confessing it now can only creep her out.
Put this memory from your mind. Forget it.
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reader, cnith +, writes (21 April 2010):
 you did it twice and stopped, yes? You're feeling guilty, I understand. You could ask your sister if she even remembers, she may not. If she does talk about it and apologise. If she doesn't remember, then drop it. It wasn't that big a deal to her.
You'd only be a sick person if you, at 28 still want to hump children or you still want to hump your sister.
Sounds to me like neither of those is true, in which case, you're fine. Don't beat yourself up over it.
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reader, chigirl  +, writes (21 April 2010):
 Sorry, but I do think thats a little over the edge. It is by far not the worst you could have done, but it was not at all nice. If you feel ashamed about it, perhaps appologize to her and get it out there instead of letting it eat you up from the inside. You realized that what you were doing was wrong before it got further and you stopped, which was good. I don't know how great the sex-education was when you grew up, but where I am a 12 year old should be fully aware of his actions in that manner so I do think you were old enough to know better at 12. Especially since she is your own sister. Or, you could let it go. It was years ago and if she is traumatized she is old enough to take matters in her own hands now and seek out help.
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 April 2010): You're not sick. If it was you teasing her or being goofy, thats fine. Kids, especially pubescent boys, are pretty odd sometimes. When I was about 12 or 13 my older brother used to think it was funny to rip open the shower curtain while I was in it and run away. He wasn't looking at me, he was picking on me in a really dumb way! Dont worry about it.
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reader, Isa123 +, writes (21 April 2010):
 You were just being curious.
It would have started to become a problem if it was on a daily basis and went on for quite a while. And if you didn't care about her feelings.
Did it traumatize her? To know that, how is she acting now? Is she a sex addict? Into drugs or alcohol? If not, have you talked to her about it? Do things seem odd in her life?
If not, then I'm sure everything is just fine. But if you're thinking about this 16 years later maybe your conscious won't let this go and you need to talk about it.
Good luck sweetie.
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 April 2010): You are just fine. Forget about it.
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