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writes:Let me start off that i am 20 and this guy in my life is about 25. I have known him about a year and a half and I fell completely in love with him. I belived he felt the same. He started doing heroin again when i moved outta state for a couple months. We still talked everyday and had our late night phone calls that usually lasted until the morning. He told me about his relapsed and he promised me it was only one time and i believed him. I come home from colorado and he is using again and is constantly lieing to me. He goes to rehab and comes home and tells me he never loved me and never will and that he met someone while he was in rehab. We stop talking for about amonth and i find out him and his gf broke up and at the time i am in a relationship. ME and him start talking again and he comes to tell me that all i never was to him was a novelty a good time. Someone that he could fuck with their head. Just for a laugh. I still talked to him after that cuz i tried to play it cool that it didnt bother me. I kept talkin to him cuz i love him. Well me talking to him all the time again ruined my relationship with a really amazing guy. But i really didnt care becasue i had the guy i believe i loved and still loves me back in my life. This guy seriously fucked with my head soo bad. He knows i will do anything for him. Im taking Zoloft now because of the shit he has said to me. Like i feel he does shit to me on purpose so im not happy. He ended up goin back to rehab on friday,my birthday. He said it was becasue of pills and i end up finding out its becase of the heroin. I dont know what to do. I love this guy soo much but he fucks with me soo much. because he knows he can. Everybody in my life tell me to stop talking to him and i dont ever listen to anyone. I constantly think about him and talk about him whenever i can. Why cant I stop it? I want to be done with him becasue he caused me so much hurt and pain. I cant seem to be able to tho. I cry randomly just thinking bout him. Can someone please help me and tell me why cant get over him or away from him? I try so hurt to and i just cant seem to be able too and i just wanna know why?
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reader, anonymous, writes (25 March 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionYeah i know he doesnt. He tells me we are friends and that he does care bout me alot. Its just sometimes everything is great between us and other times its horrible and i feel like im nothing. Its hard to explain him and us. I am going to stop talking to him altogether but its the emotional part that is hard for me to get rid of cause he is like all i think about even when im out with my friends and at work.
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reader, eyeswideopen +, writes (25 March 2009):
 Why do you give a rip what he thinks? He doesn't need you as a friend, he doesn't see you as a friend, he doesn't even treat you like he would treat a friend. Get rid and get away.
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reader, anonymous, writes (25 March 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionI dont have any self hatred towards myself. You just dont know this guy and what he has put me through. I never considered myself weak before but im starting to believe i am.
I am trying to get stronger and move on.Im hoping that the time he spends in rehab that I will be able to move on. I got my number changed so when he gets out he wont have anyway to get into contact with me. I just feel like we are friends and by doing this he is going to feel like I deserted him when he needed people the most.
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reader, eyeswideopen +, writes (25 March 2009):
You must have a lot of self-hatred. You must figure you deserve to be treated like an old shoe. "Thank you sir, may I please have another".
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reader, Emilysanswers  +, writes (25 March 2009):
Then you are just weak.
You are like a child who's angry with it's mother but wants a hug from her at the same time.
Or like a dog who needs to have someone to tell it what to do.
Grow up and find a way to get stronger or accept that you are going to be his doormat forever and stay miserable.
Good Luck!! xx
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reader, anonymous, writes (25 March 2009): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionI have tried to get up and move away. Its not the drama that causes me to stay. It is him. If he wasnt an addict and has been to rehab I would still feel this way about him. When I first met him we were nothing like this and he wasnt using. I wish I didnt have to deal with him and his actions. I love this guy so much. I have tried and tried to help him with his problem and he doesnt seem to want to listen. My life is nothing but boring. I wish it was. I dont like the situations he puts me and and the lies he tells me. I know i am capable of so much more but for some reason I cant seem to be able to get way from him. He has like this way about him that he can get me to believe everything he says and just mess with my head so bad that I do believe him and that everything he is saying to me is the truth. I just dont know what it is about this guy. I have done everything to stop talking to him and he always seems to find a way to come back into my life and its the same all over again.
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reader, Jason means Healer +, writes (25 March 2009):
There are reasons for everything.
You gotta get a grip for the both a yous.
Be his kinder and milder side of heroin and you won't go far wrong...
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reader, Emilysanswers +, writes (25 March 2009):
Because you are weak and you are addicted to the drama of the relationship.
If you walked away and didn't have all this DRAMA AND WOE to fill your day and bore your friends with then life would be pretty boring, huh?
The thing you have to realise is that you can have new drama with a new guy and it will be a nice one this time. Like the end of a romantic film, rather than an episode of CSI.
You are a woman, so stop acting like a teenage girl and move on.
Is this all you want from life? Is this all you think you are capable of?
Move away, get a new career, get something else in your life to fill the void.
Good Luck!! xx
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