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writes: So, my dreams might be telling me something. I have no idea what's going on! So the other day was my brothers graduation and i saw the guy I used to be crazy in love with. We never dated, but I liked him a lot! It was basically like a crush. I used to dream about him every night. I liked him so much I would be where he was, I wasn't stalking, I just wanted him to see me. So, moths have passed and he was a senior in high school. I thought it'd be easier if I stop liking him so that when he leaves i wouldn't be devastated. After graduation, I see him and go up to him. He says, "Hey!" then gives me a high five and I say, "Hey! congratulations!" And that night I had a dream about him. Even though I wasn't thinking about him all night. My dream was that I'm swimming back in 2010. And I'm swimming with the high school boys team. I get out of the pool and he and my brother are talking. My brother leaves and I, for some reason, start talking to him. We're just talking and then suddenly we're teasing and flirting and it was just weird how that happened. He just stands in front of me and my nose was right on his chest but I was looking Up at him and he smiles at me. "What?" I say with a smile. He keeps staring right into my eyes. He bends down and kisses my lips. I was in shock. I didn't know what to say or what to do! So i just walked away. I come back 30 mins lter. I go up to him. "why did you do that?" he turns away, "i don't know. Why did I do that? Why do you think I did that?" I go in front of him. "you're confusing me. I don't know why you did that! I'm very confused right now!" he looks right in my eyes. "Maybe you should figure it out. And when you do, come find me." he walks away. I sit at the pool all night. I didn't know why he did that. I thought about it over and over and over again. Then suddenly, I found it. "He's in love with me." I say to myself. The next morning I go to the pool to find him. I walk in and I see everyone crying. Balling crying. I didn't know what was going on. I go up to his dad, and asked him. "Hey, what happened?" I asked. His dad looks right up at me with blood shot red eyes. He's been crying. "He's dead." I step back. I didn't know weather to believe him or what? "Huh?" I had to hear it again. "He was with his buddies last night and he jumped into the pool with his clothes on and hit his head on the block. He tried coming back up, but he lost so much blood. He's gone." I stepped backwards. I couldn't believe him. So i ran where my brother and the swim team was. I ran into the locker room and they were all crying too. i walk out and see the ambulence take his body bag out side. I freak out and started crying and screaming. I've cried for two days straight. His dad picks me up and take me to where they buried him. I sit there looking at his grave. his dad tells me that I can write letters to him and he'll reply in my dreams. So i take out pen and paper and i write, "Hey. I just wanted to say that I know why you kissed me. It's cuz you loved me didn't you? Well, I've always loved you, but the day you kissed me, I fell in love with you and wanted to be with you. I'm very sad that you're not here with me today. I miss you sooooo much. I still think that you're still alive. But I know you're not. I wish I could of said that I love you. But i know that you know. Im sorry for everything i did. I wish I could see you just one more time. Even if it's in my dreams. I miss you. And I miss you everyday. But i know we'll see eah other again some day. And I will write to you everyday. I love you. talk to you later." I was crying thru the whole thing! I woke up and I was sweating and I was crying. Good thing it was a dream. But that's not the end of it! Every night so far I've been having dreams about him. Even if he's in my dreams for a minute. Last night I had a dream that he was texting me and somehow I was at his house and i see his mom holding a little girl. She looked a lot like him, but also looked like me. Later, I found out it was his and my daughter. What are my dreams telling me? Are they saying that it will happen? Or are they telling me that I like him again? I don't know. Can you help?
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reader, angelDlite +, writes (3 June 2011):
course it is, crush away! the crush will dissolve itself when you meet a guy who you're attracted to and who likes you too
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 June 2011): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionSo you're saying, it's ok to have a crush on him? just a little crush?
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reader, angelDlite +, writes (3 June 2011):
just see it for what it is then - a crush and its ok to feel like that towards someone, get on with your life too and hopefully you will meet someone who you feel just as excited about and who will be available for you, it'll happen one day.
hope that helps some!
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 June 2011): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionWell, back when I did like him, I told him. He said he saw us more as friends. i totally understood it all. I just dont want to like him again cuz he's going to college in the fall. I don't get to see him as often. How do I stop myself from liking him? When I did like him, it was kinda an obsession. But he never knew. I liked him for two years and I just got done liking him. I wish I could have a "what could've been" but that's what I've been doing for the past two years. How do I stop myself from liking him again?
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reader, angelDlite +, writes (3 June 2011):
you like him again and you are worried that you will regret it if you never tell him. i am not telling you whether you should tell him or not, i just feel that you are pondering telling him, if you don't you may always wonder about 'what might've been'x
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