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female
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30-35,
anonymous
writes:Okay i dont wanna say i know what love is; i think i know what love is. Ive been dating this guy for a while now and things are so messed up, and ive tried everything i can to make things better, and it sucks vecaue everything stays the same.so, i first met him in grade 9 and i was totally crushing for him before we even knew eachother, he had a girlfriend but i always thought he was amazingly gorgeous and i always talked about him to my friends. i added him on msn and we started talking, talking turned into texting, texting turned into hangingout.. but yet he still had this girlfriend(he was playing me but i didnt care, anything to be with him ) i know it was wrong of me to start talking to him but its not like it was only me he was playing along to. he told me that he liked me and that he loved me but i told him not to tell me he loved me unless he meant it. (he stoped) anyways months and months went by and him and his girlfriend would break up and he would tell me their over for good, and that me and him are going to have a chance together and he cant wait to date me and blah blah blah. then they got back together and my heart was broken this went on for months and months and months but yet i still held on, i started talking to some other guy to try and move on from him and eventually i started dating this guy( it was only to get over him and it didnt work, just made things worse) it only lasted 2 weeks and when we broke up i was back to talking to him all the time. 2 days after we broke up i was back to hanging out with the man ive been inlove with the whole time, and then he took my virginity witch made me fall for him so much more.but he was still with him girlfriend( they constantly broke up ) so he played me for sooooooo long. up untill october 2008 when her parents ordered a restraining order against him. then it was all me, he wanted me becaue he couldnt have her. march 1st 2009 he asked me out, i was so happy and i couldnt belive that it was happeneing to me it was one of the happiest moments ever, i cried. i thought it was a joke tho, after him playing me for so long i thought it was some joke that he was playing on me, be i decided to give it a try and hoped that maybe he was serious on being with me. So we dated for 2 months then he dumped me, didnt give me a reason or anything just broke up with me, i was so upset the whole night i was at a party and i just keep crying to one of his bestfriends all night and they keep telling me its going to be okay. but buddy ( thats what im going to call him ) keep texting me as if it was supposed to be sent to someone else (another girl) i was drunk and pissed and thought nothing other then this was a joke the entire time, he never wanted to be with me, he didnt really care or love me .. so i ended up sleeping with another guy witch i regret more then anything. he came back to me i told him what happened, and its been nothing but hell since then we are together now and have been since 2 months after i did that. i live with him crying to me all the time telling me he can never trust me and that everytime he kisses me he thinks about me kissing him, and me fucking him, and all this shit, and i tell him that if he needs to not be with me then thats what he has to do but he just says, he wouldnt be able to live with out me and that he loves me to much to just walk away. ive done everything i think i can to make things better i hate that he crys about me all the time i just need help on what i can do :(
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reader, xAx  +, writes (5 August 2009):
 I think it sounds like he is trying to make you feel guilty all the time, when it wasn't you fault. So what if you had a fling, he stayed with his girlfriend for a very long time knowing that you like him. People do make mistakes, but he made too many and does not deserve your love. Are you sure you'll be truely happy knowing that he could be with his ex girlfriend if he didn't not have the restraining order?You sound like a clever girl but someone who just can't let go. If i were you, i would end the relationship with this boy and find someone else worth your time.
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