We are both married men but bi curious. We have had sex but I think he's in denial. Any advice for me?

I am a 42yo male. I've been struggling with same sex attraction for years. But I had convinced myself it was something that could be supressed and never acted on. I've been married for 10 years and have a child. Over the last 3 years I've become very close friends with a guy at work. He was also married with children. From the beginning there was attraction between he and I. As the friendship grew, the vibes got stronger and stronger. He and his wife seperated about 6 months ago. Around that time the flirting between he and I had become very intense. One night when we were just hanging out, it was like someone flipped a switch and we both started talking openly about the attraction between us. He said that he has always been very curious and had in fact experimented previously with 2 other guys. But he maintained that he considered himself to be straight but just very uninhibited. We had sex that night. He was very cool with it, but said we just needed to keep it "recreational". I told him up front about my questions concerning my sexuality, and I also told him that to me this was more than a sexual thing, that there were also some emotional feelings for him. He said he was cool with that but I shouldn't expect him to return those feelings. We had sex on a regular basis for several months. During that time, I admit I fell in love with him. As this was happening I also began to admit to myself that I am at the very least Bi and possibly gay. Whichever was the case, I knew I had to be open about it with my wife. I came out to her about a month ago and we are working through this the best we can. My friend began dating a girl about 2 months ago. He said one day that he had the best of both worlds, meaning me and her. Around that time he and I went on a little r and r trip for a week. We had a room with one bed. We had sex a couple of times but I could tell something was bothering him. He finally told me that he feels guilty because he can't return the feelings that I have for him. He also said he doesn't know if he and I being together is right and he feels guilty afterwards. He said that he's afraid that it's going to come between our friendship. So we haven't been together since then. Every time we're together, his eyes and body language tell me something completely different though. And last week when I told him that I was thinking of going out with another guy, he got visibly upset, and the jealousy was apparent. He even started being really flirty and sexy. But when I asked if he wanted to have sex, he paused for a minute and said that we'd better not. The next day he said he was sorry if he upset me by saying no, but he is afraid a continued physical relationship will come between the friendship. This is all new to me. I don't have a clue what's going on in his head. Is he in denial or is he just trying to dump me gently? Help!

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