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writes:Ok, so here goes. I am 17, 18 in January. I live in th UK, so he is my college teacher, lets call him Jamie. I'll tell you the parts that i can't understand, and then i will ask the question.I was 16 when i started college, of course, and i knew instantly, i felt something. i had him for only 1 lesson a week, and after 4 weeks, that lesson was taken away, so i could only see him when he was around our classes. I was thinking about him constantly, and when he would walk into the room, i would instantly become flustered, and giggly. We wouldn't chat much, but when we did, it was just about general things. In one of the lessons, we had a laugh about flirting, and he kept winking at me, thats when it became clear it is too big of a crush to move on. He always nicknamed me Treacle, but didnt have a nickname for anyone else.Me and a friend were staying back to finish some photography off one day, and he was the teacher in the room with some of the 2nd year students, so i asked for a camera, and my friend followed me because she didn't trust him. The camera's are in a little closet-type room, big enough for around 6 people to stand in, the door has a big window, so it's not private... and he gave us the camera, but then when we walked back out, he shouted a girl over, from the second years... he asked her to get the camera from us. So she came over to us, asked if she could take a picture of something, and he asked me if i wanted another, so i went with him to get another. just me and him this time, and when we were in the camera room, he asked me how i was doing, said 'anything going on with your love life' ect. so, it feels like he was wanting to speak alone, but my friend came back and knocked on the door... he flinched a little, and sighed and gave me the camera. So, that was september-december, and i found a guy liked me, i'm not skinny, im a size 18, but im not huge either. so i thought i would attach myself to liking this guy, lets call him Ben. Everytime he walked in a room, i just felt normal... not like when Jamie walked in...So we were together for 5 months, and during around the 2-3rd month, we were in a room with 2 of my friends, who was sat next to Jamie, and 4 computers down, i was sat with Ben. My 1st friend kept saying that Jamie was looking down at us and his eyes looked hurt, but i don't know weather to believe her. my other friend, has a radio show, she helps with problems, and Jamie asked her if he could have the web address, because he wants to talk to her about something. She said, 'About Anonymous(me)?' he just looked at her, horrified asif he thought she wouldn't know. (this is what she told me)Anyway, the week after i broke up with Ben, i had to stay back to finish a project with some of my friends, he asked me about my love life, and i said 'there isn't one' he just started flirting again, singing (my name) Babyyy. like the song 'Sherry baby' (aparently) and started calling me Treacle again. We were visiting an arena full of uni stuff, for our future and he said 'Thanks, treacle' then , on the way to the coach, we were walking right behind him, and my friend imitated him, saying 'Thanks treacle, aww poor treacle' just having a general laugh, and i saw him chuckling, slightly turning to look at me, but i was looking right at him... Then i had to leave him for 3 months for the summer. None stop, i thought about Jamie, i was in alot of pain most of the summer, trying to keep my mind off him.When i came to enrol back onto the course as a 2nd year student, He was sat with the other teacher in the big hall and he smiled, and didnt stop smiling. so i was talking to my teacher, and she was staring at me, smiling, the whole time, which made me flustered, and my heart raced so fast! My other teacher asked him to take me up into the room so i could print out my photography work, i was with my father, so it wasn't going to be anything like ... that. So on the way up to the room, he asked if i'm definatly going to be in the second year, i said, yes, he said 'sounds good, means you'll only have 1 year left' So that day, my friend went into college, to meet with the teachers, and he asked her if i was single... but i don't know if he ment generally or whatever.He is our class tutor now, so i have 3 lessons with him a week and after xmas it will be 4. So the past 4 weeks, since we got back to college, he has been staying slighty away at times, then when he is around me he is really flirty with me. we have a laugh alot... There is 2 joint classrooms, and on a tuesday morning we are with Jamie, he stays in the room, but on the afternoon, when we are next door, he comes in all the time, and smiles at me, comments on my work ect. but looks at everyone elses and walks out... So, when i am 18, he will be 27, i leave this course in 2010, so it gives me 8 months with him, then as my older friend, also a teacher said, we will be legal to do as we please... My parents support me with any decision, my friends say i am pathetic, but one friend is telling me to go for it... Thats why i am on here, i would like some advice from someone who i don't know...I have so many questions, am i looking into his actions too much? or do you believe he really feels the same? Am i just being the usual dreamer i am? Is he just being an outgoing teacher? I don't know... But i love him.
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reader, CaringGuy +, writes (4 October 2009):
He might just be an outgoing teacher. Whatever happens, you know that for anything to happen before you've left will land him and you in trouble, so that's good that you've seen it. Ultimately there's only one real to way to find out, and that's to ask him when you've left. Your parents support you, which is interesting. And as for your friends, listen to them, but do't let them control you. You hae to make your own decisions.
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reader, charlie p +, writes (4 October 2009):
Why don't you wait until you leave 6th form? Or, if you can't wait, don't ignore your friends contrary advice but then don't let them govern you either.
But be careful talking about love...it may be that he loves you, but don't assume it yet. If its mutual attraction but one way love it will cause massive problems if you mention it.
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