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writes:Hello Dear Cupid-ers, thanks for taking your time to read this and answer my question-sorry for making this so long. I have a boyfriend, we've been dating for nearly three months (he is my first boyfriend). I have had a crush on him around two years ago, but the flame died down after good few months of developing that crush. He told me that he started liking me since two years ago; around the same time I developed a crush for him. After he asked me out, I felt the flame reappearing, but I think I fooled myself into thinking that I love him. I feel so bad for going out with him-some days I go crazy for him, can't stop thinking about him, and some days I avoid him at school and make up excuses not to see him. Today, at lunch, I took a good look at him and I felt repelled; I know that this is such a shallow and b*tch like thing to say, but he is very unattractive (looks never mattered to me, I feel like such a b*itch for even thinking and writing this). He has a kick-ass personality, we are into the same things, and he is the best boyfriend a girl could have-a rare breed of men that write poetry and songs, a real gentleman etc... But, I don't think I like him. I'm not sure if I do. I don't know. As typing this I'm crying; I just don't know what to do. Today I actually thought of ending the relationship-it's so awkward. He usually walks me home after school and kisses me goodbye, and before that, there is good minutes of us standing in front of each other, and looking around/not looking at each other’s eyes; I hate kissing him, I feel sick afterwards. And yet sometimes I don’t; it’s like I have a split personality towards him. I bet that you people think that I’m such a stuck up little girl...Even though I wanna’ end the relationship, at the same time I don’t want to because I know for a fact that me dumping him would hurt him so badly. But I can’t go on like this, I can’t go on fooling myself and him.Thank you for reading this-I don’t have anyone to talk with about this, you people are my only hope. Thanks once again x
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reader, CaringGuy +, writes (9 June 2010):
I think you should end it with him. He's not the guy for you, and it's unfair to both of you to continue this when you know you don't want to. Yes, he will be hurt. But that's the way it is. He'll get over it. But you need to end it.
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reader, anonymous, writes (9 June 2010): if you feel like you dont want to be with him, dont kid yourself if you dont want to be with him then maybe you should end it? I think you dont want to end it is because you dont want to hurt him, but if you dont really like him and your just stringing him on when he finds out he'll be hurt more than if you just told him the way you feel it may save him a lot of hurt
Good luck
Amyy
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