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writes:Did I really lose it, or was I looking for love in the wrong place? Is it too late to fix the mess I got myself in? OMG what have I done, well it’s too late for all the crying and antidepressants, regret and maybe even counseling. Love has gone too far this time, but I love this man! I’m lost without him, can’t help myself, does anyone know how I feel? I am an awful woman my love for him is so deep, I don’t even care that he is married, I wish she would just go away, how evil is that wanting to take another woman’s husband, I don’t intentionally want to take him, I just have gotten connected to him and it's hard to let go, have you ever done something so bad so shameful, that you feel like its better to just stay in the situation, because you feel like you have really done it this time, hell you might as well say f-it right, well that’s how I feel, he is so much older than me, maybe I was filling a void that a never thought existed, he was daddy to me, dad never held me that’s why I love it when he holds me, or is that stupid to say? Hmm, I know its wrong, I pray and ask God to help me break free, but it seems as if there is more to it, something is missing. I need to hear something new and refreshing, okay how about if you don’t stop sleeping with him, you will go to hell, Oh Lord I don’t want to go there, but I heard that already too, I am just so scared, I hate myself for what I have done, if I could only rewind time, I had a little boy for well with him, maybe I was living in a fantasy, and yes at times it felt like just that, he really knew how to make me feel like he loved me, well I know he cares for me, but I know he wont ever love me the way I have lost it for him, I am so down, I want to run away I want to fly away! I cant fly too far because I have his son. The bond is like hmmm, sort of unreal, I have not been with anyone else, I have been faithful for two years, faithful how sad I said that as if he is really mine, well he bought me a ring, and oh my, I really feel like I am his wife, he tells me I am his second wife, and sadly I got immune to that and began to believe it, wow only 27, letting myself get tripped out over a 53 year old, oh my she must be sick, no I am not sick, I just made a big mistake and now it's time to face it, well anyway, if anyone has something refreshing please pray for me, ask God to help me find the best wine, ask him to give you brilliant words to send to me and help my heart change from sadness and confusion to peace and victory, I will be waiting to hear from you.. love the 27 year old sweet, and nice girl that is soon to be set free from Mr.53 year old selfish guy who just wants to keep his young pretty thing on the side!
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reader, mizc27 +, writes (23 August 2011):
mizc27 is verified as being by the original poster of the question update, woooow, hmmm do i start with being sued for 10,000 by his wife or do I start with our second child???
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reader, lost35 +, writes (24 November 2008):
omg i am in the same boat only i didn't have a child i know exactly how you feel. it hurts so bad i don't know what to do. i liked the response of the girl about not talking to him for 3 days. i can't even feel like i can do that. its torture. it almost seems like an addiction. is it true love we are in or are we addicted to these men? I mean we know that they aren't ours. yet we love them like they are .....and now the holidays are approaching and it makes me so sad to think i cannot be with a man i love. he used to be my boss, i had to quit and am jobless because i couldn't take the torture of working together and him telling me he wanted to make it work between him and is wife. even though when he first got involvd he told me it was over and now he wants to give it a chance. he has no idea what he has done to me to my self confidence to my health. its like i am a loser for being so dependant on waiting for his call, its so sick yet we keep ourselves in it. I really feel like starting a support group do any of you live in colorado...... i would love just to talk to someone else that is in the same boat. i can't believe you had a son and HE STILL WONT LEAVE......that is just plain sick what a pig. i am already sickened at the fact that he wont leave her and has been with me for 6 monts...........i wish we had a mind eraser that would just get them out of our heads.
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reader, Serenity1 +, writes (29 October 2008):
 don't feel bad im in the same situation...we'll be ok...im just suprised you having a son didn't change the situation...if you want to private mail me we can colaborate on our situation...
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reader, Serenity1 +, writes (29 October 2008):
well...i would have to say that im in the same situation, only im 28 and he's 40. it's only been 4months for us, he's not married but has been with his gf for 15yrs on and off. they have no kids together, his name is not on lease or utilities, but he still with her, so obviously he still loves her. this really hurts me so i can imagine how you feel.
As i read your post i felt your pain. you have a son with this man? does the wife know? i want a baby by my guy, and i've missed my period for 10/08, but i can't help but to wonder what the end result will be. it seems according to your situation that it didn't change anything.
well enough about me, i can't really help you alot because i'm stuck on this guy also, as much as i hate to admit it i am. i even date other guys and i find myself thinking about him when im with others. it's terrible.
ive tried suggesting to him to not call me any more and i do the same, and/or if i call him don't answer. he refuses to participate in efforts to break our relationship.
ive tried to tell him i have someone else that wouldn't appreciate me messing with him at the same time and his exact words were, "baby im not ready to let you go." so i don't know what to do, i try to ignore his phone calls, that lasted for three days, and only because i'm mad a pact with God that i would fast three days from this guy, hoping that at the end of the three days he would just give up on me. Needless to say that was unsuccessful, he called all three days and left messages like he couldn't go on if he didn't talk to me.
my advice to you would be to ask this guy if you already haven't, is he ever going to be with you and only you. And then give him a time period to come back with an answer. tell him you're ready to have a full-time father for your child not part-time. and let him know your not willing to waste all of your youth waiting on him to leave his wife. tell him you love him but something has got to change.
and if you don't get anything out of anything i've said thus far listen to this "ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS"
if you don't follow through with what you say, they just let it roll over their shoulders.
Lastly, i would suggest that you just pray to our Lord Jesus Christ to forgive you (which He will) and go on. That's the thing about the Lord he forgives everyone, and no sin is worse than the other they all weigh the same to Him. Let no one tell you different. and i wouldn't expect to many nice responses coming from this site, because when i expressed that i was dating a guy that was in a long term relationship, they judged me and criticized me. i was d*m near in tears when i got done reading the responses.
If you want to send me private mails, so we can elaborate on our circumstances i have no problem with that. seeing as though we're both in the same situation.
hope this helps
Best Hopes
TF
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