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writes:I don't really know what I'm writing but I feel the urge to get something off my chest...I'm confused, I used to think I was depressed or had the blues (so to speak)from time to time but I have recently realised I just go through phases where I tend to over-evaluate everything. I reflect and think quite deeply about the most and least important things effecting me or just in general and it scares me. I want so much out of life and the thought that I won't achieve it scares the shit out of me, I don't want a boring 9-5 office job, wearing a shirt and tie until I retire. I want to fulfill my potential, not in a arrogant kind of way, I just believe everybody has the potential to realise their dream whatever that may be big or small and not many people reach it. I want to leave something behind when I'm gone, kind of a legacy but the word legacy sounds a bit big, I don't want to be rich or famous I just want to be remembered, I want to touch someones life with something I have done, like a photograph, a piece of art, a film (i'm studying film and t.v. at university)- maybe it's too much to ask, maybe I'm being selfish/greedy. The thing that scares me the most is that I can see myself not fulfilling my potential, and if your reading this you'll think if you want something bad enough just go and get it. but, it isn't that easy, is it? Or, everyone would do it...I lack in confidence, belief and self-esteem and this is why I don't think I'll reach my potential, I need to find motivation, a determination and a belief in myself and what I can do - but it is hard. I suppose it is a start by sharing my insecurities with you. I don't think anyone else understands or feels like this, maybe they do. Thanks for reading, I'm not sure if there was a point to what I have just written I just needed to explain how i'm feeling.
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reader, StevenRoss +, writes (4 September 2008):
StevenRoss is verified as being by the original poster of the questionCaveman - I don't really understand the point your making, wake up to reality in what sense. And, the point i'm making is I don't just want to work for money so i can eat, drink, and survive i want something more out of life.
Jason X - cheers for the reply, i think i do realise it is down to me i think i just needed to get everything off my chest and have someone else tell me.
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reader, emptyland99  +, writes (2 September 2008):
 I think my fiance is going through the same thing right now we have been dating for over two and a half years now and we are engaged about 5 months. today he told me he wants to take a break because he feels like he needs to fix things within himself he feels like he lets everyone down and he doesn't fulfill the expectations he has for himself. I am giving him that break. Everyone needs to do a little soul searching from time to time.
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reader, anonymous, writes (30 August 2008): Actually I think I can relate to you at one point in my life...one day I just said to myself "I will take advantage of my job". That turned out to me quitting. If I can't at least smile a few times a day, or make someone happy, or just "do something" I didn't see the point in wasting my time. I don't know where my source of motivation was...I did not even have a girl friend at the time so I can't say it was for love...or maybe I can. Knowing I didn't have a girl friend maybe caused me to be more risk taking...at the end of it all I didn't have a lot to lose because I really had nothing. Job...money, just to get food and pay bills. Well after quiting, i took some time off from everything and currently I am studying for my degree in the course I want. So in the end I will just say that...you have the power to change yourself. The only thing stopping you is you and I think u know this very well else you would not be coming out like this. Break out of that circle and just do what you think will make you happy. You are not asking for too much I think you just want to do something meaningful.
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