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female
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30-35,
anonymous
writes:I just finished my freshman year of college. My boyfriend in high school and I dated for 4 years and I went to college in Florida and he went to New York. To say the least, we didn't make it past a few months away from each other. I have been with three other guys, but i didn't have sex with them, I had oral sex. I feel like sex means a lot and I only want to have sex with the guys I am in love with and want to be with. Well, we've been on and off for the entire year. We tried dating over breaks and being single during the school year but that lead to a lot of jealousy issues. I ended up cheating on him while we were dating by kissing a guy at a party I went to and I decided that I couldn't be faithful and broke it off with him. He was devasted and we exchanged harsh words and didn't speak for 2 months. Well, now it's the summer and we saw each other last night for the first time in months. We ended up having oral sex but I regret it because I put a lot of work into getting over him and I feel like I'm back to where I was before. Now he wants to be with me again, but he told me that he had sex with a girl at school on multiple occasions and they're relationship depends on what happens between me and him this summer. I know it's selfish and stupid of me, but I feel extremely hurt that he had sex with someone else. Sex means a lot to me and I refrained from having sex with anyone else and now it makes me physically sick to even think about him. I do love him and care about him a lot, but he knows I've lied to him a lot this year and he doesn't trust me and now I don't know how i feel about him. I don't know what to do. I feel like we bring out the worst in each other sometimes, but at the same time, I love him with all my heart and I feel like he could be the one. No one ever said love was easy, but is it supposed to be this hard? How do we get pasted all of the things that happened this year? And how can we possibly date from such a long distance? Please help!
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reader, anonymous, writes (26 May 2008): I am sorry u have to go through this but it seems to me that you are both not ready for long distance relationship and if u decide to give it a try again then it will just make it harder when u both cheat on each other again or break up again. I say let this one go for the moment until you are both in the same place n if its meant to be sumthin will happen, in the meantime just enjoy being single- good luck xx
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