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female
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36-40,
*aded4Life
writes:We share a Mutual Friend who’s having a Get-together. He might Show, He might not. I its been over for 4 years (Quite some time) But I am Still Madly In Love With Him. Not So long ago I was out at front of my Apt Building Cleaning My baby’s face, my baby turns around and starts pointing and calling some one and when I come to realize I see it’s him walking my way. He stopped and said “Hi” to the baby and Squeezed her cheeks and said Hi To me Referring to me by my middle name (which is how he referred to me before we got together) and giving me his hand. I was in SUCH a state of SHOCK that all I can mutter out to say was “hi” and what now I think back seemed like a fake smile. But before that we had about 4 months without talking because He Stopped talking to me all of a sudden and I removed him from my myspace and he sent me a message asking why I removed him and I replied by letting him know that I was still in love with him. And he basically rejected me. We see each other out side but we just walk by nothing now and I think is because I made him feel as If I didn’t want him talking to me. So When the Get-together comes I don’t want to feel out of place if he comes by and says hello to other friends and not me. Or by him walking by and not saying anything to me. I want to have the confident of walking into a room and making eye contact with him and just simply smiling at least that. I am crushed and embarrassed about how he rejected me but I don’t hold Grudges for long especially for Some one that all I want to do is be with. He has a girlfriend and everything now and that’s the reason why he stopped talking to me. So in a way he was I using me to amuse him Online so I made that clear to him when I let him know that I loved him. I know he didn’t want to be with me because if he did he would set up times to see each other which at the beginning he did but it kind of died down because I had just given birth and I didn’t want to see him looking how I did. Just yesterday he was playing a song he dedicated too me which broke my heart and made me cry. I kind of felt like I was in a split screen movie where I am sitting at my window crying my heart out while he’s down stairs thinking of me sitting in his car listening to that song. He played it a little after seeing me come up stairs with my baby. But then after that he played a song by the same singer saying “A Heart Heals its self, with time” I don’t know if he meant it in a way saying he’s ok and that Oviously he doesn’t love me anymore, or telling me that it takes time but my heart will heal? Or Even if he was dedicating those songs to me!. What Should I do? Any advice?
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reader, loveguru23 +, writes (4 June 2008):
Without REALLY knowing the reason he has given you some problems, I could assume that he is still in love with you but scared of where it may lead him....or...he's just doesn't want to be with you anymore. My advice to you is to try to communicate with him and find out what his feelings are so you know where you stand. If he's just not interested in you, then you should definately move on. I know you still have some feelings for him, but don't try to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you.
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