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writes: Alright let me first start out by giving you the basics ok my wife and I have been togather 6 years 5years married ,we have 3 kids she had two when we met but the dad was a loser in and out of prison and gangster deadbeat so I became there dad and loved every minute of it ,they were 5 and 2 when I met her we have one daughter together ,when I met my wife I knew she dated a couple bad guys but nothing I saw but just maybe low self esteem but I cared nothing alaming,we started dateng it was great she was fun,beautiful ,and so loving to me I was so happy she gave me attention like no other women did I loved it ,we were so into eachother that we slept togather the second time we hungout but i will say this was way out of character for me but before that we spent days talking on the phone just learning about eachother so when we got togather it was special cI've been with 9 and 3 one night stands when i was a teen like 16 after that I never had one I'm kinda a old fashioned love guy I guess ,its funny because I'm not being cocky but I'm a damn goodlooking guy and used to model I'm 6,3 in good shape ,good lover good size but junst always believed in being kinky with one girl and be faithful ,so. After we slept togather opened up and wanted to know if i was a cheater or if I was a player because she had been cheated on multiple times and and I told her no and that i was not the player type and I've been with 8 +her ,then she was all happy ,but then I asked the same she told me 10/11 and only a couple o.n.s. and not bisexual stuff no crazy stuff and I askedabout race ,3ways orgies she only admits to one 3way that night and I was like ok she sounds like me a girl that was a little wild as a teen but was smart as an adult .....so we started dateing and the sex was amazing she did everything and help i would wake up to her giving head :) she was so happy to have a guy like me ,she got pregnet then I a fewcmonths later I asked her to marry me then after marriage she changed ,sex gone head gone like every 3months gone....from twice daily to that?she was moody not sweet and when I went threw health issues she would say I'm not your nurse ? This went on for years me if i broght sex up she would make excuses then say go find someone else ??I'm like wtf ?so finally this summer iim at my breaking point and i find out she ran into an ex and I was with her at my old job a restaurant and she never told me ?and we went in there twice she never said a thing?then she ran into him twice talked but neve told me ?but in the past she alaways would ,then I find out hes black I'm not racest but again another lie and this guy is a guy she worked with and screwed for a year and he had a girlfriend and sthey all hung out ...shady shit ...then in the next days after confronting her all the lies just pored out ....she admitted to sleeping with at least 25 + guys a girl ,a,three some even two guys in one night ?!!! She had 18one night stands ?wow and admitted to sleeping with a drugdeaer and gangmembers meth adicts and the worst was she had two little kids ? And admitted to even sleeping with a guy after his friend had A LOT of drugs in the house ?and she hervfather was there visiting ?...now I know people will say the past is the past but I'm sorry I'm so hurt ....and knowing she would give these disgusting men what they wanted but her hansom faithful husband ??? Please the images are horrible
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 December 2012): I'm just curious if he had the wisdom and courage to seek counselling, couples and individual or just chooses to believe he is a victim so he can remained 'justified' in his wrath so he now can say its 'normal', 'acceptable' to be verbally abusive to his wife?
Because in wisdom, I call him on this line of 'reasoning' as BS.
http://www.guidetopsychology.com/anger.htm
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reader, Miamine +, writes (21 December 2012):
Mr goodguy, thanks for your update... Eight months later and you still sound angry and bitter.
Have you considered a divorce?
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reader, mr.goodguy +, writes (15 December 2012):
mr.goodguy is verified as being by the original poster of the questionPeople are socks these days no morals and defend the sluts
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reader, mr.goodguy +, writes (9 April 2012):
mr.goodguy is verified as being by the original poster of the question@miame ok first I have to say my wife was distant sexually WAY WAY before I found out about her wild/disturbing past ,again when we met she was amazing to me and a loving women then after marriage she changed and honesty I known I'm not a perfect man but I am a damn good one I don't drink smoke do drugs I'm a good father I bring in 2,000 a month I'm very warm caring anytime she's sad threw her saddness I hold her scratch her back ...so please MIAME,put judgment on me I admitt I think screwing gangsters and having one night stands with dealerrs and partying all the time when u have two little kids is something I judge but what man or women would not be hurt I mean when you build a life with someone and step up to be two kids father as I did that were some dead beat fuck up and treat a women like a princess .....and then you find out your wife not only would not give you head sleep with you somettimes even not wanna kiss??but with her.ex a complete loser out of prison and a ex gangmember she admits she would always try to please him because she wanted to keep him happy??guess what he ended up cheated multiple times and giving her clymitia and she got so sick she lost her job ,she confronted him and he pushed her and threatened her life .....after that she still went and hungout togather months later lol and that time he asked if she would drive him to another chucks house?? So my point is with these losers she treated them like kings and gave them what they wanted even got walked on but...just kept being cool then she finds a great guy like me and treats me shitty??and lies abbout disgusting things yes MIAME I am upset and yes I'm pissed but if u met me in person you would realize I'm a great man and father that's just in pain
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reader, anonymous, writes (8 April 2012): @ Miame:
Of course he is angry and calling his wife names and looking down on her! That is how normal people react when their partner inflicts a terribly painful wound on them for selfish reasons!
Whether his wife (and some of the Agony Aunts here) want to see it that way or not, she hurt him with these lies. He does not deserve blame for his initial bad reaction.
They should break up. She threw away his respect and trust with her lies and I don't think it is likely to ever be rebuilt.
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reader, Miamine +, writes (8 April 2012):
If you make someone feel bad, call them names, or stand in judgement like you are their God or something instead of a mere human being... they won't find you attractive, they won't like you and they will wonder why they stay with you.If you are insulting your wife and calling her names about a past that she can do nothing about, then you should perhaps get yourself a divorce.She can't change the past, and she's probably sick of you telling her to tell you every single thing she's done in full coloured multi-coloured detail, so you can get more hurt more upset and have more things to feel hurt and disgusted about.... I'm sorry your so distressed, but the next time she threatens to leave, I suggest you agree with her and let her go on her way.Why continue this joke of a marriage, maybe when your a single man again, the nightmare's won't be so bad. You should never have married a woman who already had children and admitted to you she had a threesome before she met you.
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reader, anonymous, writes (7 April 2012): When she says "don't judge me for my past" just tell her "I won't judge my wife. But you're not really the woman that you told me I was marrying." That is the core of this problem. She misled you about who she is to get you to marry someone that you did not want to be with. Now she is getting indignant when you are upset about this and reacting like any sane person in your shoes would act. She has no right.
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reader, mr.goodguy +, writes (7 April 2012):
mr.goodguy is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThe hardest part is I love her so much but I know she has treated me with little respect at times even my family has said comments her brother father ..so its obvious she's treated me poory at times ,the thing thts most hard is she now will just get extremely angry and threatening me shell leave because I make her feel bad or because she says I judge her?????I feel when you lie to your husband for years and treat him bad and don't make love and I'm hurt then yes I'm admitting I'm judgmenal of her past ....its absolutely shocking ...and I do go to counseling ,I have even gone to hypnosis .....I'm still feeling disgusted and very hurt its like your heart gets ripped out ..and the person that causes the pain just gets angry if i ask questions ?I admit that since are love life went south I lost confidence and got insecure myself my sexual stuff ,all that ....anyuways I just can't shake the images and the lies and feeling with me she acts bored by sex
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reader, Miamine +, writes (4 April 2012):
I have a feeling, your main problem is that she not as loving as when you met. The woman who would give morning blow jobs now makes you 3 months. The kind and thoughtful woman has been replaced by someone who doesn't care if you are sick... So you start to ask yourself, where the hell is my wife and who is this bitch who has taken her place..
So you start to wonder about everything. You knew she was a bit wild, and you had no problem with that. Threesomes didn't bother you, I don't think anything would. No matter her sexual history, the love was strong enough for you guys to conquer any jealousy or mistrust. But now some of that love has been lost, and therefore comes the questions and the mistrust.
Often people who have been brought up badly can be open to bad experiences. Often they later feel ashamed and don't want to act like that again, or even go off sex as some kind of punishment for the way they have acted before. This could be the case, or could be something different. Maybe she is angry and resentful with you about something and is using sex as a weapon.
Put aside the jealous stuff for the moment. I think it's your way of handling a marriage going wrong. I think you and your wife could benefit from marriage counselling. You need a professional to help you to talk together honestly and find the trigger that pushed your relationship into the wrong direction.
The way you talk about your wife, feels loving and respectful, but there is also a lot of anger and resentment in there, and it has nothing to do with other men or her past, it's to do with how she is treating you right now.
What the hell went wrong between you guys, damn, it sound like you two had something good. Fix that and forget about all this jealousy stuff.
"and knowing she would give these disgusting men what they wanted but her hansom faithful husband ???"
Yep, there it is... you don't care how disgusting it got.. you just bloody want some of it too, and that's not wrong.. so get the marriage fixed up and no more of this dwelling on the past instead of fixing the present mess you is in. If you two can't talk honestly and fix your marriage, then call the professionals in.
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reader, mr.goodguy +, writes (4 April 2012):
mr.goodguy is verified as being by the original poster of the questionWell I must say I do appreciate your honest answers but I must clarify a couple things I did tell the truth in all I said but I want to be clear my wife is beautiful ,funny,a good mom,and can be very loving and she has ,NEVER cheated on me ....but the lies the betrayal and hurt inside and just knowing she was that kind on girl also makes me so deppressed I can't function ,I'ts sad that I think about how she would give head or sleep with some loser on the first night but not her loving husband ??and everyone including family tells me its my issue and she lied because she was ashamed? She never did meth ,only tried it twice but she did drink a lot..I'm not perfect but always was a good guy and wanted a good girl .she's a wonderful person today she's even a victims advocate !!!for rape victims but its ...still shocking and hard to have sex because of theses images
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reader, anonymous, writes (4 April 2012): She's not worth your time of the day, drop her and move on, she put up a good front, I don't see how you didn't see this out of 6 long years, she's a liar and a cheater and will sleep with anything and anybody, you might want to think about going to the doctor and have yourself checked out. I hope she didn't take her daughter to the drugdealers and gangsters. You can esaily find yourself a real womem. You shouldn't feel too bad about it because that's her lifestyle, you knew she messed around with gangsters before you married. I just hope you can let it go, look at like it was only 5 years of marriage and not 20 years.
Wish You Luck
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 April 2012): OP her sexual past is not the real issue here. The real issue is that she has been a very uncaring, strange, sexless liar.
No offence OP, but you should have guessed she was a fucked up puppy who has had a fucked up sex-life based on what you did know about her. What kind of woman do you think dates gangster jail bunnies and other degenerates? Did you really think they just had vanilla sex? You really think he didn't share her with his buddies, do drugs with her and stuff? You think she wasn't part of that lifestyle or that it was some kind of mistake? Do you just really not know what type of messed up women, with no self-respect it takes to date gangsters, guys who view them as meat and property to be passed around?
You should have known, really, no girl who hangs out with and dates gangsters is clean. Sex, drugs and money, that's their lifestyle and they don't give a fuck who they fuck over to get that. That's what your woman is like OP. That's who she was/is.
I dated gangster meat before OP, want to know how the majority of her one night stands happened? She was drunk in bed trying to sleep at various parties and guys would just climb in and take her, sometimes she wouldn't even bother opening her eyes to see who it was.
Look if she admits to having 18 one night stands, then how many guys has she blown? How many has she given hand jobs to? In my experience with women in like that, handies and blowies are nothing, and they'll give them out like sweets.
Look OP I'm not trying to make you feel worse. My ex, the one who used to date gangsters, sounds like your woman except she was a good girlfriend, she was kind, caring,very loving and was only with those gangsters because she was living on the street and they took her in. She described her experiences in detail to me early on in the relationship and it was crushing to hear. The things she let disgusting guys do to her and her reasons for letting them "so they'd stop pestering me" "because if I said no they'd do it anyway and be a lot less nice about it" were very hard to take but I got over it after a long while because she was a good woman, and a great partner, and we had a very fulfilling sex-life and strong emotional bond. So while she did still and always will have deep emotional scars from those days, she never let it become a problem in her present and actually used it as motivation to fight hard to maintain strong bonds and good relationships to the people who deserved that from her.
You don't have that.
You don't have any of those redeeming factors OP. Your girl just doesn't seem to give a crap to be honest and those who tell you to just move on are wrong because you can't while she is treating you this way. The past is the past but only if it doesn't effect the present. Unfortunately for you, this is beyond a simple "give it time to sink in" kind of dealing with it, because at the moment you don't even have a real relationship with her and I guarantee to you, you don't know half of her past, you still only know the vague details.
Before you decide what to do ask yourself these questions. Is she really a good partner worth fighting for? Is your relationship a good one, where you can really see a long happy life together? and biggest of all after all the shit she's put you through leading up to finding all this out, do you really think she's going to change?
OP if you can't fix the present then there is no way in hell you'll get over her past.
Go seek professional help, marriage counselling etc if you want to fix this relationship. I would not even try and get over her past until I know what the future holds. As bad as this sounds having her past to fall back on in case you do break up will make getting over her a lot easier. It's a lot easier to get over someone you've learned to be disgusted by.
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 April 2012): Just a short note here as I read your piece. Just GET WITH IT and get on with your life. Hey, not everybody is candid and honest. You have three kids and have started a life together. Sometimes it is the guys who cavort, but sometimes it is the women who cavort before marriage. Just the both of you get together and make a pact. Have an understanding. Get over with this and get on with your life. You can't do any more about this anyway. Drop it and get on with your life.
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 April 2012): "The past is the past" . . . except when your partner's past ruins your sex life with them in the present and future.
"It's none of your business" . . . except when you get tricked into marrying someone who has totally different moral values from you, and you are left unable to love and respect your spouse like you want to.
R.goodguy, you are not in love with your wife. You never were. You were in love with the woman that your wife made up with her lies. That person wasn't real. Now you have to get to know your real wife, warts and all, and see if this is who you want to be married to. Maybe you do, maybe you don't, its your choice.
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