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writes: I love someone.. I told him how I once felt..it was through a facebook message. it was deep.. i know he prefers in person but as a girl my emotions communicated through paper or a message just seemed to work better for me.. if found myself in my words and then I sent it to him. i can't give proof that you can hold on to or grasp right now however its been 3 years of knowing him and he went aw- 10 pages of beauty. my patience is being tested..I sent it five days ago and have yet gotten a response..i want to talk now to him..i want to hear his side.. if i asked him questions in person he would be blunt and straight forward with me..however when i rarely see him and the anticipation is killing me.we enjoy our time together..we laugh, we catch up we talk about the most random things. we can go months without seeing eachother..but he always comes back..and i have so much composure now, i do a great job playing cool..but i know that anyone could feel my love when i carry it. my parents divorced last year and it ruined me..i changed he moved on to someone else..they broke up and i got together with him two months ago..after my best friend passed away..he seemed to be very stressed out with work and he kept talking about his future plans and ideas..i have been stress free up until that night that i saw him. he told me that he "sunk the ship" and he was so happy to not have any commitments now. itold him that my commitment is jesus! and he laughed and said that he knew that i would say that. when he described his ex..it seems like all of the qualities she lacked where qualitites that I carry throughout myself.. i am not quiet..i talk a lot..im great with family ..shes just awkward! sometimes i dont know when to stop talking..sometimes i get carried away and i forget what it was that i really wanted to know and then i fail to ask the proper questions.. like"would you ever give this a shot?" ugh i am frustrated with myself however i believe that there is a right time and a place for everything. tonight is his birthday..i wrote on his facebook.. i havnt heard from him since hurricane sandy. that was 6 weeks ago.. the time is slipping me by..im having a harder time focusing on my school work and he just left me hanging once again..why are men so stubborn..if i saw him in person things would be so different..i can feel the connection.. and i can feel his fear of me. the last time i saw him he hugged me saying that it was so nice to finally see me and that I looked great.. i tried to connect with him..with love but all i could feel was his fear as he turned the other way to order our food..i was just so happy to see him and he must have been afraid of me.. the last thing he told me was that he hoped he got to see me soon. I doubted him right on the spot.. but then again deep down inside i knew that i probably wouldnt be able to see him because of school..and i think i might have even muttered that to him right after hugging him goodbye.. yea i probably did haha i speak from the heart and im driving myself crazy because i just want to hear his side. instead of telling him that i hope to see him soon.. i said hold on a moment...went to my car and i gave him a poem. its the very first one that i wrote for him....three years ago. it was called "perhaps?" perhaps he is the one. My question is: What can I do to focus and what can you tell me...based off of how you feel initially about my short story. go with what lcomes to you...and i will take it for face value and truth to be told. Thank you!
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reader, oldbag  +, writes (4 December 2012):
 Hi
Its difficult to decipher your tale, but I gather you opened your heart via a message to him on FB?
If he hasn't responded and you rarely see him in person then I would say he sees you as an old friend. Your message probably took him by surprise and he is either too gobsmacked or doesn't know how to respond.He won't want to hurt you cos your a friend.
You will have to be patient but I wouldn't wait for him as in a relationship way. Cast your net wider, your young enough to fall in love plenty of times before THE one turns up.
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