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female
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30-35,
*harisma dela cruz
writes:first of all, good day to all the readers of dear cupid!just call me chary 17 yrs old. when i was in 2nd year of high school my good image in school becomes bad when my best friend invited me to join their clan and i never thought that this would make my life complicated and miserable my grades falls down, i became the talk of the town of the faculty. because of having and dating my boyfriend at the park just call him brent, we get accused by one student who saw us holding hands and it says that we are also commiting "pda" she spread it on the school and my adviser talked to me about it and sent me to the guidance office they were really all against us!by this i learned to drink alcoholic beverages,to make foolish lies, worse is I even i lied to my parents just to join the overnight swimming w/ is our geb that i cannot do before i was not in this stage.i used my school to tell lies, i used my bestfriend, cousins, classmates to tell lies and excuse myself for being absent in school and by attending the grand eyeball and also for a date. then i got hurt when he decided to broke up w/ me he said that my looks doesn't matched his look but i do not believe in his foolish reason. brent is not my first bf but my 4th one. all of them worsen and even destroyed my life. i lost my virginity when i was w/ one of them and i lost it because im too young to think its not right i became too harsh all because of this things, it created a negative reflection on my own. i took summer class because i failed 1 subject im really depressed and lost at that time, when i met a guy who is my summer class mate named joseph, whom i thought loved me but the moment he got what he really want from me suddenly he's love suddenly falls down our relationship was fix then broken repeatedly that causes me to become tired of everything without any sense. so i was the one who broke up w/ joseph he is my last boyfriend and after him i became scared of loving again i became a scared for loving a guy again. and every time there's someone who is showing me that he wants me i failed to be w/ him again i move myslf away... and by being alone i asked myself what is my plan in life? then i realize that i do have a big and better plan and by the time that my mom talks to me we cried on each other and i asked her forgiveness. and i myself talk, cried, and asked the forgiveness of god. i asked for enlightment on my mind. then he gave it! i decided to change because of love for god, family and remaining love for myself.now im in college and i was not blaming anyone for my mistakes, its my own that helps me to become a better person. i bring my bible every day to help me stengthen my spiritual life but behind this i created a big question for my future... do i still deserve the love of the right one for me? after all these things..... thanx for reading my post!
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reader, Cerberus_Raphael  +, writes (19 October 2010):
 Of course you deserve the love of a good man! All around you have forgiven you, you are a new woman, renewed in faith and in sinless life. You are free to avoid mistakes and build trust between your friends and family. You are free to seek love and be loved. Just be cautious. I am confident you will find someone who will love you and not just use you for some sordid desire of his. He will love you for who you are and right now, the woman you are, was forged through the hard hearts of a difficult past. Of course you deserve love.
I hope that helps.
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