Internet girlfriend not making any sense and I don't understand what is going on?

A male age 36-40, anonymous writes:

ok well i met this girl a year ago on youtube and we would talk everyday sending messages through utube well after about 4 or 5 months of knowing this person i found another sight she was on where she would wright a diary mostly everyday or a few times a week, so then i started reading her diary and the stuff that was in there was so depressing i mean she would cut, had an eating disorder and she was very depressed her self, so after finding this diary i told her i found it and that i like to read it cause its all about her, so after a few months go by of reading her diary and sending messages daily on utube she then starts to say she loves me and i did not say it back for a while because i was so shocked that she said it to me and i did not really think she meant it, so after like 2 or 3 weeks of her saying she loves me i start saying it back and maybe the first 2 times i said it i did not really mean it but all the other times after i really felt like i loved her, so now its been about 9 months since i found her online diary and have been reading ever since, she also has 2 utube accounts, and for this whole time ive only been talking to her on one of them, i know she has two cause in each account she is the same person in pictures she show in her background so i knew it was hers, so for some reason i message her other account and i get a reply back saying who is this and im like its me duh and shes like i don't know u and then im like wtf then shes like the other account is not mine she said and im like whatever u lier, then like right after i talked to her on that account then on her normal account she is like whats wrong and then i tell her, then she says i have to tell u a secret and its gonna hurt u so i say tell me and then she says in all the pictures ive seen is really her sister and that the other account with the same person in the pictures is her sisters, so for about the last month she has been ignoring me why idk she will only answer when i say like would u even care if i deleted my account and then she would say yes but im barely on anymore but i know thats a lie cause i know she does not have a sister and i think she is telling me this because she is embarassed about her diary or something or maybe she thinks i won't like her since she sounds so crazy in her diary i just don't know why she is ignoring me, do u think this is her way of breaking up without having to say bye, a few times i tried to believe that she was the sister but then like the next day or two she will put in her diary that she is gonna kill herself and then i freak out and message her and then shes gets mad saying that not my diary its my sisters, also she puts in the diary that she is so lonely and since shes lonely i know shes chatting with strangers but not me anymore, also at the time when everything was going good she told me that she loved not only me but like 3 other guys and she can't ever loose them so i said ok thats fine, then like a week ago we talked for like 15 minutes and she said she no longer talks to those other guys and misses them a lot, so im also thinking maybe one of those guys broke her heart and she just said screw this online stuff idk, all i know is im still in love with her and i don't know what to do because she constantly ignores me and i don't know if she even still likes me and thats wear it hurts the most because idk if i should love her and be happy or try and get on with my life so thats where im stuck at right now.

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