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female
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30-35,
anonymous
writes:I feel really embarassed about this problem because it is so stupid... Im 18 years old and recently I had sex with someone who ive been with for a long time. until then id said no to having sex with him because I wasnt ready but around 3 monthes ago i started feeling like i was. anyway basically we ended up having sex when i was quite drunk.he was a virgin too and it was quite embarassing attempting to er, get things right.... i didnt mind though because i was drunk. weve had sex more times since, he comes to see me at university and ill go back to my old town occasionally too. but it was always in the same position, him on top....recently, he came round to mine and whilst having sex suggested standing up. well we tried it and for some reason i just got soo embarassed to the extend to which i was in a mood... let me say at this point, i am training to become a primary school teacher, so i can speak in front of a massive audience. i think im really charismatic, and it takes alot to embarrass me. im not that confident with the way i look. im hourglassy but have a bit of extra baggage. but i dont think thats it. from about a year or more ago i started getting embarrassed when i said "rude" words like condom or penis or anything like that. matt* thought this was cute at the time but since weve started having sex ive started thinking that it isnt good at all. matt hasnt done anything to me as yet apart from touching me a bit and no one ever has. i just feel embarassed. Matt came round yesterday night and we decided to have sex with me on top. we were near doing it and for some reason i just got embarassed and jumped away from him and fell off the bed banging my head on the drawer... god lol. matt was really understanding, he knows what im like. it just depressed me all night because i just kept thinking what am i doing? im not confident enough to have sex. im really clumbsy and i fall over myself all the time. if im in public and trip up, i can laugh at myself, blush a little and just get up. im confident within myself and i think i like myself because im genuinely too nice. i dont mind that i get a little embarassed over sex.. but its really jeapordizing stuff now. matt cant ask me questions without me being like "nerrrr dont ask meeee". i feel pathetic and immature and im pretty sure im now so what can i do to stop me feeling like this? i cant xplain my feelings to matt. i tried last night and i just feel so guilty because he is so perfect and i'm just pathetic.
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reader, Mr-M +, writes (11 December 2008):
 Hey, i'd just like to throw in this advice;
Talk to Matt, as im sure if he is as perfect as you see him to be, he will be understanding about it all, and will most definitely help you get over your embarrassment, and will be supportive when you need him to be.
Hope this helps
M
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