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*elleeashton
writes:i had a one night stand with this guy at a party i just had way to much to drink at. i don't remember it at all and neither does he. i was humiliated the next morning seeing as i couldn't remember his name. he took me for coffee and we talked. i didn't want his number or anything to do with him really. i was humiliated. but he put his number in my phone and got my number. he was also terribly concerned about rejection. he texted me and we talked. i liked the sex so we kept on having sex every weekend for three weeks. i didn't want anything but sex. how could i? i was humiliated at what i had done. but he was just crazy about me. then i told him i was really falling for him. just thought he should know. then he told me. he had a girlfriend. i went completely blistic. but i didn't show it. i acted like i didn't care and he begged and pleaded and completely put his self out there. told me she didn't mean anything and he got suckered into dating her because she cried and cried to him about how bad she wanted to be with him. he said he would leave her for me that minute. i said no. i said hateful things. things i had no right to say. things that hurt him very deeply and that weren't even true. just as deep as i could cut i was going for it. the last thing he said was he didn't regret a day of it it was the best three weeks of his life and he wants to be with me and is so sorry. i thought about it. gave him the benefit of the doubt and called back two days later. i said i can't deny the fact we had something i was happy. i didn't want it to end or the be the reason he left her. he said he didn't want to either. then he said later that night he didn't think he could be with somebody who could say those things. we didn't talk for two weeks. so about a week days ago he calls and leaves a voicemail(i was in class) and says he wants to still be "friends"? he is sorry and he is a dickhead. he "misses me" and it is hard to go from talking to somebody everyday for hours to just nothing. i was skeptical but agreed. then i realized i want this boy. this is the only guy i have ever felt this way about. i have to have him. i can't lose him. i have to get him back. i finally found the one who makes me happy. i called back the next day and said i needed to see him in person. he agreed. the next day i drove to his house. i wanted to tell him how sorry i was for the things i said. how bad i wanted him back. and what he meant to me. he was outside welding in his shop. doing anything but look at me. we talked about silly things like his sister for two hours on the tailgate of his truck. i wanted to spill everything. but then it came out. he got this girl pregnant(which i knew.) but he was trying to get back with her. she wanted to but he wanted to make sure it was "right". he was trying not to cry the entire time. he wanted me and i wanted him and we both knew it. it was so hard. i stayed for another couple hours and then left. i left him three voicemails on the way home. confessing everything. that was two days ago. he has yet to talk to me. i called yesterday at midnight and told him i was crazy because i was on the roof of the hospital (where i work) just thinking about him. i had thought about him all day and i only wanted to talk to him. and the entire time we were "together" he chased me. he came after me. he called me. he made plans and wanted me. i did nothing. he was crazy about me. and its crazy because im not ugly but he is amazingly gorgeous. its not just me. his ex girlfriend all have six packs blonde hair and d cups. he is that really cute really funny guy everybody likes at the party. way out of my league. a thousand girls saw him and he saw me. and was crazy about me. for me. and i ruined it. what do i do? wait for him to call back? try to move on? im so confused. i really want to be with him. for so much more than his looks. i can get hot guys. i can't get guys with his smile or that will call me and talk to me for hours telling me jokes and doing that humiliating funny voice just to make me laugh. i have never felt complete like i am with him. i am always single. im ashamed of it but im a player. but for the first time i only had one guy in my life. him. i never feel that spark. the butterflies the whole nine yards. but with him it was all there. and now because of my hateful words its over. and he doesn't want her at all. he is forcing it for the baby. and its not even positively his. he slept with her once. and he wasn't the only one that night. she is .... permiscous. i know i really hurt him. what is he feeling? do i have a chance? please help.
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reader, anonymous, writes (16 November 2008): It's not because of you words, it's because he got another girl pregnant and seems to want to do the right thing by her. All I can say is, don't start sleeping with him again while he's with his pregnant girlfriend, that is so low. He can leave this woman and be with you yet still see his kid
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reader, hopelessly_lost +, writes (16 November 2008):
 i went trough the same thing with this guy named tom, all we were were "fuck buddies" if you will. but being ith him all the time for a good time made me fall for him fast, and then he told me he had a gf. she wasnt preg but the hurt was still there. but you need to disconect yourself and in time you will get over it i promise, its been about 2 yrs since it happened to me and im getting married...im deff over it, it also helps when you do nothing but think of everything bad about him and make him repulsive to yourself..
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