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writes:One and half year ago, I fell in love with a girl but she did not like me and she turned my life upside down.During this extremely difficult time, another girl appeared in my life. She listened to me and found out we both suffered from the same kind of problem, so we were both trying to help each other out. At that time, I had a feeling that she kind of fancied me, however I couldn't leave the girl I originally love and also it was near summer holiday and I needed to go back to my own country, therefore I decided to spend two months to forget the original girl and come back to her after summer holiday. This was a mistake. Before I went back to my own country, she invited me to go to have dinner with her and her family, which touches my feeling. My friends think the invitation was a bit awkward because she only invited me and it was a dinner with her family too. However, for me it is simply the only happiness memory in my life because it somehow touches my feeling.I regret for not asking her out at that time.During summer holiday, we talked a lot online. She met her current boyfriend at that time in a trip. I did not know she fancied him until I worked it out on my own by just simply observing her body language. It took me a month to figure it out since they don't interact at all in school. When I came back, I was determined to ask her out. Unfortunately, my first love suddenly came back to me and all the feelings I used to have with her came back and it took me 20 days to get rid of that mess. And I was going to ask her out in front of her but I was too shy, so I sent her a message instead, which was a bad idea. She rejected me the next day but I still loved her and we remain an extremely close relationship. About two months later, I asked her out in front of her. It took me a lot of courage to do it because it was my first time. However, she rejected me again. Somehow she cared about me a lot and helped me out at anytime. I tried my best to hide my feelings when I am in front of her but she told me she could sense that.Afterward, she was really depressed that her current boyfriend was not asking her out, therefore I went up and support her even though it was painful for me to listen to these kinds of things. I was really depressed that she went out with another guy. I told her how bad I feel and she replied she knew it will hurt me but she still told me how upset she was because of another guy. My friends said that she was not only using me but also building her joy on pain. Now, one of my female friend told me that she is happy that I am heartbroken because of her. And we both started to ignore each other. I just can't persuade myself to believe that she is happy that I am heartbroken because of her.I feel really down even though I don't know wherether is true or not. I miss her.
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reader, 83puremage1 +, writes (27 February 2011):
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reader, GeeGee255  +, writes (27 February 2011):
 You blew your best chance with the second girl when you allowed the first one back into your life. Now you have lost them both. Learn from this and move on.
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