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writes:eh I guess I should start with the story first before going straight for the question, seeing it will be confusing if I don't.I have this crush. I have a crush on my teach for two years, he's 26 and I just turned 18, last month. He's always so kind. We were so close with my other friends C and B all the time. The three of us spend time having guitar lessons with each other over the summer. He's was my friend and a person I could count on. When I have a tough problem in class, I went to him and seek help. I guess I looked up at him as guide and a role model. I don't know my excat feelings towards him, and my head wants it to be just friendship.Anyway, he quit being a teacher two weeks without telling anyone. I asked him why over email, he told me because the lower grades are giving him trouble, and he's sorry he didnt say goodbye to me or my friends. He's said it was too tough to say goodbye. My heart cracked it seems, and I cried. I was mad. I was mad at him for giving up. I mean, my other friend dealing with the lower grades the best she can and she's doing fine, but I was being selfish. I didn't think of his feelings till after I blame him for just quiting. Im hurting. When ever I looked at the guitar for the guitar practice I used, and all the memories we shared. My heart cracked, and I have to hide the guitar. I mean if I even see one on Tv I start to cry, I could barely type the word guitar without breaking down.It had been 22 days since he left. And I tried to take my mind off of it by taking extra clubs at school, and take extra work. I even took Presdient and Reporter of my school's club, that have 45 kids. Im super busy, and I even taking new school challenges. But it's like when I take one little break or even if Im sleeping, my mind wonders back to him. I'm asking...I'm asking...How can you get rid of this feelings? It's hurting so bad.I guess this is what heartbreak really feels like really?
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reader, Indie23  +, writes (24 October 2010):
 Honey, I'm really sorry I can't offer a quick fix for heart break. If I could I'd probably be a millionaire by now.
What I can say is that it will get better. Everything will get better, you just have to give it time.
I know you probably don't want to hear this but it's probably a good thing your feelings for this guy never got out in the open. A relationship between a teacher and a student is rarely a good idea.
Keep participating in all your school activities, I think it's great you're keeping busy. Don't feel ashamed of being sad, just don't let your sadness stop you from living.
Indie.
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