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writes:My problem began at the beginging of 2010. In 2009 i had moved school because i didnt have any friends in my last school. but too my susprize in my new school i made loads of new friends who i got on really well with and for the first time i felt like my life was perfect. As time went on i got two really good friends who were like brothers to me we even had our own secret little club :) But as we started to approach high school i started to have doubts, and got rather paranoid thinking when we would go up to highschool all my friends would leave me. at the begging of 2010 my two bestfriends who were like my brothers decided they didnt want to be my friends anymore for no aparent reason and left me. It upset me quite alot as i loved them both very much. Eventally i got to highschool and the worst thing started to happen all my close friends started to leave me and go off with other people, i tryed to fit in with other groups but all my attempts failed and none of them liked me. It really got me down and eventually i only had 3 friends left who i was desparate to hold onto. But then for some reason these 3 friends started to turn nasty. They would always make fun out of me thinking it was funny even if i told them it wasnt funny they would still carry on. I started to get really down and devolped depression i started to self harm and contemplate sucide i couldnt tell anyone. Eventually i managed to tell one of my friends but she and the other 2 friends made out there was nothing wrong with me and kept makeing jokes about me jumping off a bridge and stuff which wasnt funny at all and it hurt inside. Eventally i attempted sucuide. and after recovering my friends apolygized to me but something didnt seem right. i then found out the night i went into hospital 1 of them had been writeing nasty things about me on my facebook wall which had then been delted. it hurt so much to know he had lied about careing. i had done everything for them to i had always cared for them listened to them i even made one of them a birthday cake. I went to say one of them five days after i got out of hospital he told me to jump of a bridge and take another overdoes. after i had a go at him he siad it was a "joke" When i went back to school i agreed to do one lesson in that one lesson the whole class were laughing at me and whispering about me, and kept giving me saying sarcastic comments to me about how i tryed to kill myself. Ive left and am now looking for another school.Ive decided to block them all out of my life and i have fallen out with all of them but have i done the right thing ? Sometimes i wish i could see them again and i miss the old days. Have i done something wrong to them ? i just dont get it. should i say sorry to them for falling out with them ? should i even move school or am i being to dramtic ? Should i change ? I also am so lonely now i have know one to talk to as i live in a very small town i practically know everyone please tell me if im wrong ?
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reader, angelDlite +, writes (7 March 2011):
 hi
i am sorry to hear you have been having such a rotten time!
very often when we move up to high school our primary school friends will meet other people and i think that you have been too sensitive to do the same (because of you having no friends in your previous primary school and also the hormone changes we have at your age do weird and wonderful - and sometimes terrible - things to our emotions)
my son went through the same thing with his primary school friends for the first year of high school. friends that he had played with since the age of 5 turned on him and actually started bullying him. he kept his distance from them for ages and has recently (an inexplicably!) started hanging around with them again. i am hoping that there will be no more problems now they have all grown up a bit (they are in year 8)
these 'friends' of yours are hateful if they can tease you about something so serious. i don't think you are the one who should be apologising!
i think that changing school seems a good idea, maybe a fresh start is just what you need. what if anything did your existing school do to help you? they REALLY need to be addressing their bullying problem, the minute a pupil tries to kill them self :(
you are very young and have LOTS of things to look forward to in your life. high school is just one short chapter so please try not to let this colour the rest of your existence. i hope you have a good family and parents? have you had counselling for your problems? i think this would really help you
xx
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