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writes:How much of a horrible slut am I?Here's the story.I was 17 and 1/2 when I met a guy, who shall be called Mason, only a few weeks younger than me through my cousin on XBOX Live. We talked for a few weeks but didn't actually meet because he lived 4 hours away before we started "dating".About a week after we started "dating" my mom set me up with a guy almost a full 2 years older than me. We hung out the first day and then kissed and fooled around the second. He, who I will call David, was the first guy I kissed.I told Mason the next day right after he told me that he kissed another girl the previous day. We broke up.David and I kept hanging out and messing around the next week but I blew him off one night to go up and finally meet Mason. That night Mason and I fooled around a little and got back together but I didn't tell him about David.David, who I didn't tell about Mason, and I kept messing around for a few weeks. One day we were kissing and stuff and he said that he wanted me and I said the same thing because at the time, I did. It got a little bit more intimate and I really didn't realize what he was going at when we first had sex because we were both still fully clothed! I honestly didn't think he was going to do that because we didn't have a condom. I was on birth control since I was 12 for hormone reasons, but he didn't know that. I was shocked and really upset with myself but didn't say anything to him. We hung out for a few more days but I didn't do anything more than kiss him a few times. I told him it was over the day I went up to see Mason for the second. Mason and I made-out that day but nothing more. I didn't tell him about that I had still been messing round or slept with David.I saw Mason again a few weeks later and we slept together in the backseat of my car in a movie parking lot after I had given him oral sex in a movie. We had to leave right after the sex though so there was none of the cuddling or emotional bonding that I craved, just like I ddn't have with David my first time. I cried myself to sleep tat night because I felt so guilty and revolted with myself.We slept together again about 6 weeks later and it wasn't rushed or hasty or anything. It was done right and was great.I still hate myself for cheating on both of the guys and every single slutty thing I did and all the messing around. It's a year later and I'm still with Mason and they are the only boys I have ever even kissed. How horrible ad slutty am I?
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reader, anonymous, writes (21 March 2010): It makes you immature and inconsiderate. Slut is a strong word.
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reader, CaringGuy  +, writes (21 March 2010):
Instead of sitting there and calling yourself a slut, ask yourself why you are doing this. Sitting there and crying and just putting yourself down won't help you at all. In life, people screw up, people make mistakes. There isn't anyone who hasn't hurt someone before, or who hasn't been hurt. People make mistakes. You're not a slut. You've made some mistakes, and now you're paying for them because you feel bad. Ask yourself why you are doing this. Are you happy with your life in general, or is there something that's bothering you. How's your self esteem? High, or low. Have you much confidence. Take a good look at yourself, and just work out why you're doing this. Once you understand why you're doing this, you'll be able to make sure you don't make these mistakes again. Have a good cry, accept you've made mistakes and then just really focus on yourself. And don't see either of these guys again. Neither is right for you.
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