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male
age
26-29,
*ukass
writes:I'm 15.I fell in love with this girl and then I made my first mistake: I became best friend with her by sms; we talked by text messages but on school she totally ignored me.It hurted so much when I was playing with her and I got screamed at, while others (playing in the same way) made her laugh.She told me she felt lost, not herself, like I was trying to make her please me. All because she didn't treat me the same way. She'd just either ignore or punish me. With everyone else, it was the other way around. So I became angry and argued with her several times until our friendship ended and we didn't talk for 2 months.Yesterday I talked to her like a friend, telling her stuff that has been happening to me, making her laugh, etc. On the afternoon, she screamed at me again in front of everyone. This time I lost control and replied in the same rude way. She became angry.After everything (jealously, heart breaking, and all sort of felling you can imagine), I can't let her go. I lost control of myself. Whenever I can, I follow her and ask her why she treated me on a different way or what is wrong with me.Before she said "You are the only one who knows me. They don't. I don't want to treat you in the same way". Now she said "He was doing nothing wrong" and he was doing the same thing I was.I think that I don't look good enough and my self-image/esteem was affected by this whole thing. Worst part: I lost everything I was. I lost my honor, proud, etc. because I keep following her around like a puppie, asking for a last chance and an answer.For real, I think I am obcessed and this feeling itself is making me feel ashamed of myself. She told me to leave her alone but part of me wants to know what's wrong with me. Am I ugly/stupid or what?I am afraid she'll report me to her mother for harassement. I've lost every trace of control. When I'm talking to her, my anger comes out in so many ways. Then my "nice side" comes out, asking her sorry. It's so confusing.How can I leave her alone? And what's wrong with me in the first place that made her ran away?MODERATORS: This was done by the "re-edit" option that was given me in my last question. It's the same problem, but things changed in the last days. Sorry =)
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reader, Mature Lady  +, writes (30 June 2011):
This friendship is becoming dangerous,if you are following this girl about and she does not want it you are harrassing and stalking her for which you can get into serious trouble,you are both young and I cannot see anything coming out of this friendship although I am sorry but I do not feel it can even be called that,you have to learn to control your anger and until you can do that I do not see any friendship or relationship lasting.
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