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anonymous
writes:this is a broad question.i am aware that there are a million approaches to life, but my mind usually takes the most negative perspective first. if i try hard enough and am lucky, i'll force myself to look at it another way--and believe it. but typically, for instance, in relationships, i am usually sure that it is 'not meant to be,' even if i want it to last.i wasn't born like this. i have memories that go back to when i was at least 2 yrs old--until i was about 8 i was a naturally happy and outgoing child. i was also very extroverted. now i'm more of an introvert, which kills me, because deep down i know i (can) love other people without weariness and fear, but 99% of the time now, it seems all but impossible because of this negativity within. i've seen therapists, tried to forgive my past, and present unchangeable circumstances, but this hesitation grows if i'm not vigilant. yeah, i went through the usuals of my parents divorcing, being made fun of when i was an older kid, etc...still, why am i like this now no matter how hard i try to break the habit? Reply to this Question
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reader, anonymous, writes (28 May 2009): you know iam exactly the same i mean sure 90% of the time i have a reason to be in a rage and curse my life but even if a box full of £20 notes fell in front of me sure id be happy but about 10minutes later id be depressed again and nothings worked for me either.the difference is i have been like this nearly all my life i hate the way life is e.t.c lets just hope in time things will change for you and me both eh? good luck to you x
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