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writes:Okay, first off, I realize this situation is incredibly cliche, but I can't seem to get over it by myself. I'm eighteen years old, female, a senior in high school, and I am completely in love with my female government teacher. Blah, blah, blah, yes I know I'm gay, I've had relationships with girls (around) my own age, it's not just an admiration thing, I'm incredibly attracted to her physically, sexually, emotionally. She's 28 and divorced. I feel like how I feel is really pretty obvious, I do whatever I can to do well in her class and I try to talk to her outside of class whenever I can. Mostly, I'm really mixed up about the way she acts towards me. I mean, she's a fairly nice lady in general, but she told me specifically that she placed me in the desk closest to hers for a reason and she always stands over my shoulder when we're correcting papers. She very often leans on to my desk if we're taking notes and there's something she mixed up and she always leans in real close when I ask her questions and almost every day compliments the way I dress. She always sneaks in front of me in the lunch line so we're standing pretty close and she likes to stop me in the hallway to ask me questions and she always seems to be around the senior hallway at the end of the day and says goodbye to me. I guess I realize her behavior could easily be totally platonic, but it drives me crazy. I love the way she smells when she's leaning in close to me, I love when she laughs at something I say and I get to make her smile, I love when she rolls up her sleeves and I can see her tattoos, I love when she turns the page in my book when she's helping me and her hair falls in front of my face, I love when she makes jokes about how good she looks, I love when she faces the direction towards me in the lunch room and we make eye contact. She's the only person in the world I allow to call by my full name. What am I supposed to do? What can I do to stop thinking about her and make her stop standing so close to me so I can smell her perfume? How do I tell her she's driving me crazy every single day without her finding out I'm completely in love with her?How do I get over her?
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reader, anonymous, writes (13 December 2009): Hang on in there girl! She is still your teacher and even if you are considered the legal age to be an adult, you might cause some serious trouble at school. I would just wait until school ends and see what happens. Who knows, maybe something good will come. Let us know okay? Good luck
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reader, LoneHeart +, writes (13 December 2009):
Wow this is very dejavu, although in my case it was opposite sex teacher, it doesn't really meake a difference. He was so smart, so put together, and it seemed like was interested in me too. I even had some students in my class say that they had noticed it too, and that it was really weird that the teacher was being so obvious about it. When I herd that I felt really weird because I knew it wasn't just my imagination. I didn't want him to get fired or get in trouble so I started distancing myself from him. I hated it, because I loved talking to him, but I didn't want to be in a comprimising position. I would have felt horrible if he got in trouble and then I thought about how weird it would be if people found out. I mean it was weird already becuase my peers were noticing his interest in me. Basically remember that the feelings you have right now are so good. You feel all giddy and warm when you see that person, BUT the reality is not as nice. The rumors and aftershock of accepting or confessing these feelings to this teacher could be ackward. Unless you wait until you are done with school.
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