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writes:*OP's own title*so i told him how i feel about him when we were alone after school and things weren't like the way i expected them to be i was expecting him to freack out and stuff but he didn't he got angry in a weird way he even pushed me(because of him my favourite watch is brocken)and he said:"stay away from me loser i don't want to be like you" then he added a terrible word he said:" gays like you should be killed" i never saw him that angry before not even once he's my idol of controling the anger he's like an angel but what happened that day!! ..i didn't know what to do i couldn't talk i couldn't move i couldn't even breath and defend my self....and before he left he said :"lesten to me kevin it happened once and it's never gonna happen again" ...(what happened was he gay? he doesn't seem to he looks very straight)......so i went home and i locked my self at my room i was crying like a girl he really hurted me ...then my mum came to my room and we started to talk i was so close to tell her that i am gay till she said:"kive you know you're our angel you're the perfect son when i see you i forget all the pain that i can't have babies any more you know all my freinds are jealous of me because you never made me upset so pleaze tell me what's wrong"...man i just couldn't i am the only kid they have and gay!! if i tell her i'll be the major reason for her death i have to make them proud of me ..there is too much pressure in my life so lied to her again and told her that my girl friend cheated on me with an other friend ...i am living a huge lie .....it's been two days i didn't go to school i feel so tired and stupid and humilated it's like i am the only gay in the world that's how i feel sometimes ........so what should i do? should i forgive him after all what he did to me ? or should i just apologize to him ? i am so in love with him ......i am so lost:(ps: i am sorry guys for the long message but i feel so good when i write you my problems at least some of you can understand me and thanks in advance
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reader, anonymous, writes (22 March 2010): Aww sweety I'm sorry this happened like this. Good for you for telling him how you feel, but the other poster is right, high school is a breeding ground for judgment and cruel behavior. I highly recommend you tell your parents. I know it seems awful and scary but I'm sure they already have some idea and no matter what they're your parents and they love you no matter who you are. Being gay doesn't make you less of a person or a son. You're the same person, their only baby. Now I have a friend who has a son about your age and everyone suspected he was gay but he never said anything. He's also an only child. His mom had a hint that he might be gay all through high school and when he was about 16 he finally told her. She was a little surprised still and maybe a little sad, but she adjusted to it and now they are even closer because he doesn't feel he has to keep this big secret from her. You need to tell your mom because you're going to need your parents support especially at times like these. I know its scary but you need to tell them.As far as this guy goes, do as the other poster suggested and if you feel the need to say something simply apologize and then give him space. He might just be surprised and not sure how to act around you now, if you want to stay friends then give him space and let him see that you're the same person you were before. He may think that now you're going to try to seduce him or act differently. Your other option is just to ignore him and act like it didn't happen. High school is tough and you have to have a thick skin.Goodluck
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