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writes:He is rich and famous and I am just a poor girl who got passed around from one person to the next. I have been sex trafficked after we got married but it was only verbally and we need a ring. I forgot the entire event because I was later attacked mentally by family members and then degraded during the sleepover when the neighbors decided that they would draw over my body with permanent marker. They roofied me and I have been tricked by many. When I woke up from it all I felt like that was so disturbing that these people did this to me when we should have been celebrating what God did for us. We would have made a family, lots of children but I forgot about this entire arrangement and became more naiver. Two children later through sex abuse, God has blessed me I began to heal with marijuanna, essential oils, breastfeeding. He got married to some hot rich model who comes along and steals my husband. Everything else is ruined. I have so many people that I know that I should sue but instead they have all turned it on me when all I offer them is the Lords mercy and grace. I am afraid that every time I go to build a platform on anything it is destroyed by those with special needs because I have become their guide and some on drugs became codependent on me, my energy but with no husband around, being depleted. I know that he is not happy and got hateful from what others did to me but now he is with her and he started doing bad things...will you say a prayer for us? I just want my life to be as it was intended to be and I am sure that there are so many lessons for me to share with others but everyone it seems would make me look like the no good one when all I have done is give it all away, anything I could offer if someone needed it more they would get it and I just don't know how to get life to go back to normal because I am so far off from what it would have been due to my family practically destroying me, lowering my standards, blessing my perpetrator's by not standing up for me and making me appear mentally ill. Help, really! It has got to turn around from here. I know that I am a blessing but feel so utterly judged!! I am just finding out that my actual father is my uncle and his father has an entirely different last name so I have been lied to my entire life in thinking that I am somebody that I am not and people have abused me who have no rights to my body so please pray for me...I need to maintain good energy but have not come out with this to anyone who actually believes me. I have been rejected instead and it confused my husband into treating me the same until someone else comes around to add value then it all makes sense as to why I am still me and not some whore. I just don't want to be labeled falsely and truly need help. What would you do?
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 March 2022): This seems to be a life of much sorrow where you turned to others for help you received neglect or abuse.This makes me think you should rely only on professional counselling where they are bound by confidentiality.Sometimes in life a young girl or female child develops early in a way that brings unwarranted and unwanted sexual attention.The child still exists as a child but to the lascivious mind the child becomes forbidden fruit and is taken advantage of with coercion or threats.No one should have to live a life of abuse and I am glad that you are aware that you have your own personal strength.It is difficult to self heal but it is possible.With self healing or any other kind of healing you will always face times where you slip backwards and are unable to change this.That can happen at any time so don't alarm yourself unduly. Just wait patiently for these times to pass or seek help If necessary. If you have a small child I recommend little mum and baby groups where you chat or babies play with toys.At these functions try to keep your difficult past to yourself as most mum's try to keep it all on a happy and lighthearted level.But if you join a group for abused women you can let it all-out if you feel you need to unburden yourself.The only problem is that if you confide in other people they may use what you say against you as they have not agreed to any confidentiality.Some peoples lives are so unusual that people find it hard to believe or relate because the threshold of unwanted horrific things that can actually enter your life is so much lower than someone who has been more protected.A simple example is the case of a 15 yr old girl who got raped because she was 20cents short of her bus fare and the driver refused to let her on the bus.So she was left to fend alone for herself far from home and a lone predator attacked her.I think you have got to prove to yourself that you can survive.I am sorry that you have experienced dreadful events but try to be aware that you can trust yourself.Your baby needs you.Stay peaceful sister and try to remember that you have your own value and you can create a life for yourself where no one will harm you.If you can put anyone's name to the police for your earlier abuse then get started as that is the best route to preventing the perpetrator continuing to take advantage of other children or young adults.
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reader, ItsWrittenForYou +, writes (1 March 2022):
ItsWrittenForYou is verified as being by the original poster of the questionI feel that the person you are relating to may have struggled with rejection himself. If he is doing bad things, he is clearly not happy with where he is in life. Though it sounds like he has everything, I can sense that he wants it all but might need to be content with little before he can learn how to truly appreciate you. You do not mention if he is your friend or not but whatever the barriers are, whatever your pact or arrangements are I am hopeful that if you both pray things will go smooth. I think it is a good idea that you do not support drug use but use the good herbs that God has given to us.
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