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writes:Hi, at this moment in time I just don't know what to do been searching for so many answers so thought i would just see if this message can save me...im 25 years old, dont like my job, have no friends, live at home and nothing is going for me. I dont have no passion for life no more, just lock myself away in my room after work and even the weekends dont leave the house. I just dont want to be here no more and can see no direction my life. I have lost all the,charisma, confidence and...myself. I have been miserable for so long I dont even know what will make me happy, feels like life is passing me by and theres nothing I can do about it. But the worst thing is from an outsiders view they would never ever guess Im like this, everyone assumes im so happy and content with life but...im not and latley my head has been having bad thoughts and dont know how to stop them...help me..
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reader, SirenaBlusera  +, writes (24 January 2010):
 I'm going to tell you something very personal, and I hope it doesn't make you uncomfortable.
You might feel hopeless, but I can tell you that there is hope. I know this because a couple of years ago, I was in a very similar situation. I'm a bit older than you are, I've never had clinical depression but I've always felt things more intensely than most other people. Someone I really loved let me down, and I fell into a deep depression, and I almost died. I'm not exaggerating; it nearly killed me.
I'm not trying to scare you. The key word is "nearly." It didn't kill me, and guess what? In retrospect, I realize that this happened for a reason. I have rediscovered myself and changed my life in the way it was meant to change and there are some experiences that changed my life for the better, that couldn't have happened if things had worked out between us.
I am sensing that you're suffering from depression. You need to see a therapist or counselor, because no one on the boards can make a diagnosis. You're welcome to talk to us anytime, however.
About lacking direction in life: I had a similar problem. I had planned on becoming an attorney, all through college. But when I graduated from uni I realized it wasn't for me. I had no clue what I wanted to do with my life. I did some research and talked to people and I found out about teaching english as a foreign language. It's the answer to my prayers.
One thing I have learnt about direction in life is that you're not wedded to a career. Instead of freaking out about "what am I gonna do with my life" in terms of forever, just focus on, "what am I gonna do now." It's good to think of the future but getting to obsessed with it is counterproductive. Sometimes if you just focus on a career for the time being, you can rediscover yourself and what you wanna do in the long term. Choosing a career isn't getting married. If you get in a good career, have an epiphany, and discover something else you're better suited for, it's not wrong to leave your old field. In fact nowadays people don't have the "luxury" of spending their whole lives in one field anyway. Versatility is an asset these days and willbe in the future.
Another thing that ocurred to me is the time of year. The circumstances you described are very depressing, and you need to change them... and you can. However, when we're depressed we see things in a distorted light. I have a condition called Seasonal Affective Disorder, which means that I become very depressed in the winter. A lot of people have it, but there are things you can do to alleviate the symptoms. I listen to music that comforts me and I draw pictures of tropical things. I'm weird, I know, lol. But, it works. :)
Don't lose heart. I've felt that things were hopeless before, but I was wrong. Some of the most horrible things you go through turn out to be the catalyst that makes you rediscover yourself.
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reader, janniepeg  +, writes (24 January 2010):
 You are right. Life is pretty pointless. Even a perfect family like Tiger Woods' could not hide the fact that it is all meaningless. Read existential theory, Book of Life and Death, meditation, etc.
Realize what you are doing to your body now. You are losing your life force and if you continue being like this your organs would stop working for you.
Only you can make yourself happy. Your heartbeat, breath, the wonderful mechanisms in your body. They need you to choose life so they would go on functioning normally, and better yet, your little brother needs some loving.
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reader, anonymous, writes (24 January 2010): all these feelings are trying to tell you something. your life has to change now or youll be miserable forever. muster up the courage to break out of this save yourself
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