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writes:I once had a crush. It felt stronger than a crush - it felt more like I was in love. At the time it was wonderful and when I saw him my heart made a jump out of my chest, or when I talked to him he would always be kind and had a wonderfully charming smile which would make me feel that I was melting.He was perfect in my eyes. I wanted to never leave him, and thats how it was going to be.Now here comes the problems, and these are major problems. This crush began at the age of 10, maybe younger. This crush was also for one of my teachers, who must have been in his very early twenties when I first met him. The third problem, and this is the biggy - its hard for me to say - is that, though I've tried to shove him out if my mind, at the age of SIXTEEN I'm still thinking about him. Mr X still creeps into my mind, and not on the rare occasion.I feel so pathetic. I've read other peoples experiences with their crushes and teachers etc, and none seem to stretch beyond 3 years. I'm crying out for help here.I actually suffer an almost physical heart ache when I think about him.. Do you think it could have been true love on my part? Or perhaps a silly obsession which got out of control? I suppose my problem is also negative in the way that in all those years it seems to hinder my interest in any other male. I mean, I have had other interests, but it becomes only a matter of a few weeks before my interest in them suddenly goes shooting back down to zero.Maybe I've dug myself into a hole thats too deep to climb out of. I think I need some advice which can act as a ladder for me.
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reader, anonymous, writes (26 January 2012): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionHello everyone, I thought it would be nice to inform all who replied to my problem with my success story. Its been a couple of years since I posted, and its also been a year since I began a relationship with my current boyfriend. We are very happy, and alike, and the best part? He isn't my teacher! He is truly wonderful and we have great plans for the future... So long everyone, I hope you lead happy and fulfilling lives.
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reader, lonelygirl11  +, writes (12 January 2011):
hi i know you prob dont come on here anymore as last post was a while ago but i really understand how u feel. my crush started around same age as yours 9/10 i am 25 now and STILL feel same i have tried everything to get over this but nothing made my feelings go away. im totaly lost and have told no one as i know i will be shouted at and told to get a grip and grow up as i 25 so i have kept it to myself all these years.
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reader, alex_101  +, writes (19 October 2010):
 I know exactly how you feel, mostly because I'm STILL crushing on my teacher. And to make matters worse ALL of the other teachers have told him I like him and that it's bes if he avoids me. But yet he countinues to start a convo with me! I think your crush is normal, but then again, thats just me!!!!!!!! GOOD LUCK=)
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reader, HeskimaCerita  +, writes (10 January 2010):
Don't sweat it! You saw this guy every day for years, of course there's gonna be an imprint there. Now if you crushed on him when you were ten, some feelings are bound to remain, as you started contact with him when you were very impressionable. Also, around that time, us girls can mistake deep admiration for love. Kids often admire teachers, that's why teacher crushes are so common. Try to assess the qualities you desire, that he has. Then try to find someone with those qualities. You don't necessarily need to be romantically involved with this person, but if you're getting the need for that quality filled, you won't crave it from your teacher. I hope this makes sense to you, and good luck! Oh, and by the way, I crushed on my scuba instructor for about 5 and a half years. This is why I know so much about it! It is a normal thing, you aren't crazy ;)
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reader, anonymous, writes (10 January 2010): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThanks so much, soon567. Your so helpful I just don't know what to say. Marieclaire, thanks. I must admit you came on very blunt and perhaps a bit harsh but there seems to be mainly sense in what you are saying. I think from now on its gonna be easier for me to move on. I think its going to happen, and I'm going to be all the more grateful to you guys for helping me when that time comes around - I'm sure its coming soon.
Thanks again for giving a reply in the first place.
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reader, anonymous, writes (10 January 2010): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionI admit, I think I must have been obsessed the first two years, but come on Marieclaire your not helping me here! I just need some advice on how to get him out my head. I WANT to move on. I don't fantasize about him. I don't think I'm still in love with him. He's just still here even though he isn't.
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reader, anonymous, writes (9 January 2010): This is verified as being by the original poster of the questionThankyou 'soon567', your reply is really appreciated. I do think I need to be with someone... I have tried you know. I had a boyfriend recently. I thought he was kinda sweet, so went ahead (I don't think I'll mention how often I thought about Mr X though) but we did NOTHING. Was it my subconcious do you think? I suppose I need to get my act together as you said. And just so you know, marieclaire, I HAVE moved school. Thats obvious by the fact that this has stretched over 6 years. You seem to be stating things which you don't know. I think I did know him. I was in so many classes with him, I can't count, and this was over 4 years. Being with someone for 4 years every day I think its sufficient to say I did know him. The problems are my feelings, and those are getting in the way of my life (since they can definitely lead nowhere).
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