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female
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30-35,
*idtownToDowntown
writes:I'm the baby of my group of friends and am a year behind them school (bar two others) We all get on extremely well and are pretty close, a family of our own.All of them have finished school and got their college entrance exams results back the other day. While I am absolutely delighted that they have all done so well and that they can pick any course in college I can't help but feel jealous and angry.I have one year left of school and while they all had each other to lean on and vent to about the pressure, I feel like I have no one. I know that they would be more than willing to listen to me moan about all the pressure of school but I don't want to be acting like I think that I'm under more stress than them in college. I don't want to feel like I'm holding them back any but I don't want to be left out either.I know I should grow up and stop being so selfish but I really cannot listen to them talking about their results and Uni anymore, I just end up feeling so jealous that they're all venturing out into the world and I'm stuck behind. We've always done most things together but now they're all going to have their private jokes and parties for their crew only and the thought of being subjected to 'Oh, you had to be there' makes my blood boil. I don't know what's wrong with me! I am happy for them but then this jealousy comes through! And if the envy doesn't come the anger of being left behind does!I know it's going to be an experience for them and that they'll be making loads of new friends (and I really want them to!!) but I'm afraid that my best friends will soon move on and my boyfriend will find the difference in our school careers straining but I'm also afriad that it'll be ME who has drove them away because I'll be so consumed with exams!Any advice on how I could get my head together and just be happy for them (and show them how happy I am for them) would be much appreciated!
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