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writes:i'm celeste...i'm 13 going on 14 and i'm 7 months pregnant. i found out way too late. me and my boyfriend used a condom but it must have split without us realising. the first thing i said was i wanted an abortion. but they wouldn't give me one...they said it was too late and abortions were only carried out at this stage in pregnancy in extreme emergencies. they recommended adoption. but here's the problem...it sounds selfish, but i don't want this baby to even have a life. i want it to just die. i've been punching myself in hope it'll die. but i still feel the baby move inside me. i hate it so much...maybe if it knew how unloved it's gonna be it would go away. how else can i get rid of it?please help me.i don't want a baby at all, and don't say adoption because i hate the idea of knowing that somewhere out in the world is a baby that i carried around for nine months.
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reader, jcarnell  +, writes (29 July 2008):
Well, how do you rspond to something like this without anger? I'm 27 years old. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant now for six years, and are unable to. You don't know the pain I go through EVERY day because my dream can't come true. I would do anything to be able to feel a life moving inside me, and all you want to do is kill yours. Do you know what that makes you? Do you know that by hitting yourself in the stomach, you can cause severe damage to that baby if he/she doesn't die! Then how hard do you think it will be to find someone to adopt him/her? You need to think long and hard about what you are doing. God made this baby for a reason. Give it to someone who will love him/her. PLEASE!
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reader, youngandconfused90 +, writes (12 March 2008):
 Okay,im not going to call you a brat or pass any kind of judgement because that is that last thing you need. What i will do is tell you a little about me and then give you my opinion.I got pregnant at age 16 and for a long time i sometimes felt the same way. I prayed for God to make me lose the baby, but then i just came to terms with it. I rellized that a baby was coming rather i like it or not and that this baby was a part of me.I know you dont want to think about adoption, but heres why you should. Your mistakes dont have to define who you are, they dont make you. Its what you do with the mistake.A lot of people in this world cant have children and would pay a lot just for you to consider them. You might not like having to carry this baby you made but you are and thats that.Adoption is the must selfless thing you could do for YOUR baby and you should consider it and i hope you do. I hope things work out for you.
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reader, anonymous, writes (11 March 2008): ok you little smart thinking brat if you didnt want a baby you should have kept your legs closed, dont blame the incent baby inside you it was you that helped make it like it or not so deal with it you dont know how many ppl try and dont have a baby but your little young butt gets one to try any kill it grow up you shouldnt be having sex so young were did you think babys came from the sky yeah right rude or not thats what you need if you keep hurting that baby by hitting your self you will go to jail for harming that baby good luck but i say you need to stop acting like a spoiled brat
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reader, anonymous, writes (10 March 2008): wow you are young and pregnant..i agree with you adoptian is something hard to think about..cause its your baby and after a long time you will wonder were it is and who its with and so on....but where is your FAMILY in all of this if not your parents or relatives the babies parents maybe they can help in caring for the child ..but beleive me once its born and you see it and hold it you feelings will changeeeeee and you will automaticlly sstart to worry about the baby and make jure it is healthy and safe and it just happens but you will fall in love with it right away..if you dont get that feeling after a week maximum and you still dont want it well you have no other choice than adoption...
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reader, NextHowardStern +, writes (5 March 2008):
No, you will never be completely ok with the idea of adoption. Maybe you will be just a bit more open minded after reading my response. But it may also be better than alternatives.
From birth to 3 months of age, were the most terrible times of my entire life. Although, I don't remember anything, I have sources I have heard from. My foster parents, my caseworker, and the judge involved in my case.
While in my bio families custody, my mother is mentally retarded and unable to properly care for a child. She married an asshole.
Keep in mind, all the abuse was from 1 to 3 months of age. This asshole, used to blow marijuna smoke in my face. Use my body for a place to put cigarettes, and joints out on. While crying because I was starving, or needed a diaper change, or attention, he would put liquor in my bottle, and feed it to me. I was eventually REALLY quiet. REALLY FAST. He used to lock me in closets when he didn't want to deal with me. He never fed me, I was 7lbs 11oz at birth, and at 3 months, I was 2lbs 3 oz. He threw me up against walls when crying. Threw me out in the snow, when crying, and left me there, damn near to die. Police and my caseworker rescued me from that one alot. I was molested by him and one of his friends. He would beat me with belts, chains, newspapers, extension cords, baseball bats, and beer bottles. He dropped me on my head and back numerous times. I always had diaper rash from head to toe.
Thats just some of the horrors. My caseworker told me this 17 years, and about 500,000 cases later about the details of my case.
At 3 months of age, I was placed in foster care, and removed from that hell hole. With the intentions of NEVER returning. I would be properly taken care of for the next 6 years.
Until my caseworker came by one Sunday and told me that she had found a family for me to live with. And I would be going there permanently.
On June 28th, 1984, I was adopted by the family I was to go see later that night.
Now, adopted 24 years ago, growing up, having a family of my own, and having a second chance at life...I totally support, and encourage people to give children up for adoption. Its the best thing they can do if they have any doubts at all about the child they are expecting. It is never easy I am sure, but you could give a child a second chance at life. If I would have stayed with all that abuse, I was told, that I probably woudn't have survived too much longer. I know, that I wouldn't be here telling you my story now, if I stayed. I was one of the cases that made NYS Child Abuse Laws what they are now.
However, even though I support adoption...the question to "the search," I don't agree with. I was found my by biological family, by accident about 9 years ago. And it was one of the biggest disappointments in my life
I hope that whatever you decide, you will will know that it was the right decision. I have a 2 year old, I am 30 now, and raising a child, is A LOTTTT of time, work, and energy. Not to mention a lotttt of money.
Anyway, I want to wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide. I have not in anyway implied that you cannot care for your child, I have in no way attempted to offend you in any way, I just want you to be aware of what can happen. In fact, I believe what ever choice you make, will be the right one. Good luck, take care, and I will be thinking about your situation.
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reader, anonymous, writes (4 March 2008): Hunny
just to let you no I met my biological parents when I was 30 and I have 2 older brothers and nephews and nieces who all love me and I them I did not have any bad feeling towards my mum as I new it was not her fault as times were difficult, Ive got 2 familys who love me 2 very different familys if you need a chat please message me hun love mandy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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reader, anonymous, writes (4 March 2008): Thats exactly why sex at your age is illegal. You are not mature enough to deal with the consequences. Im afraid adoption is the only option now. It is not selfish that you do not want this child as you did not plan for it however look at this from another angle, if you had been trying for a baby for months or years and had finally made the heartbreaking decission that it just wasnt going to happen, adopting an unwanted baby would be your next most realistic option.
If the baby will be brought up and loved unconditionally somewhere else why are you so against it? At the end of the day it is a life, it didnt ask to be in this situation either. Im afraid you have just got to let nature take its course, maybe you will feel differently, although if you don't even like having the baby inside you this is unlikely. Good luck with your labour, perhaps you will use protection and keep pregnancy tests in for regular use in the future.
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reader, xapathyxrebornx +, writes (4 March 2008):
 please stop punching yourself, its to late now you have to get on with it. Once you give birth you will see your beautiful baby in your arms and you will feel the love....
Message me if you wanna talk x-x-x
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 March 2008): Hi Hunny
Please listen to me its to late now to abort and punching yourself in the stomach will not help you, I am adopted and ive got wonderfull parents who have given me a mountain of love and hunny I do feel for you really I do Ive been there and was pushed into an abortion at 16 I didnt no my own mind then and would not have been able to care for a child, So please stop hurting yourself if you need to talk then message me and we can talk through this for as long as you want...Please stop punishing yourself love its happened and you will have to carry on now its not nice its a painfull part of your life and id like to help, My computor is not always working at the mo but from the 7th of this month it will be fixed so im running around to get my messages, Please give me a chance to help you through this sweetheart..you need some help hunny a chat with someone ok TAKE CARE OF YOU WITH LOVE AND PRAYERS MANDY XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
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reader, anonymous, writes (3 March 2008): I cant even imagine how much pain and worry you must be going through right now honey. I really dont know what to say, because we cant change anything or go back in time, but I'll pray for you every day ok. There's nothing you can do now, but accept its fate. Everything is there for a reason, and everything happens for a reason, so trust in that. The hardest part of the pregnancy is over now, and soon you will have had it and I have no doubt that you'll surprise yourself. Once you look at the beautiful little baby you have carried around for 9 months you'll be filled with love ok honey. I'll pray for you. Good luck with everything ok.
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