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female
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30-35,
anonymous
writes:hey, i need some advice about my phobia. before i explain, i hope people will take me seriously and give me constructive advice and not tell me to get over myself.my sister abused me phycally and emotionally from when i was born until i was 12years old, when we moved house. my parents did nothing.i was bullied through out secondary school by the whole year, not just one or two people. id hide in the toilets every break/dinner i was that scared, id get verbally and physically bullied, in lessons id get things thrown at me books, shoes, coins, pens. the teachers did nothing! 3 bullies decided to come round my house and smash my windows, kick my door in and threaten to kill me. my mum made me appologise to the bullies! i felt so low, tried to kill myself. my mum took me out of school. i did my gcse's a year later in college. college was great until i dated my best friend (a guy) his ex didnt like this and her friends decided to bully me. i met a guy online and went to live with him at the other side of the country in the may, he ended up cheating on me, my mum had to fetch me back, i came back in september, too late to start college. i got into a college course that started in january until june. i finished that course although i got bullied there aswell, the girls didnt like me it seemed, the teachers would send me home because i was so upset. in september 2008 i did a childcare course. it was awesome, i met loads of friends, 3 very close ones, i had a boyfriend by that time, i met him in july 2008. i ended up getting pregnant in april/may 2009 (it was planned) everyone was happy for me. my course was a two year course so i had to quit college. to cut a long story short my so called best mate tried it on with my man! i found texts on his phone of them two flirting. i found out after 2days of moving in with my man. i forgave him but couldnt forgive her. i never had to see her again, i was having a baby with him and engaged to him so i found it easier to forgive him. i dont know if it was just words or more, iv asked him and he said he was just taking the p*ss, messing about with her because he knew she liked him. anyway, all my mates took her side (probably because i left college and they saw each other every day)i do not talk to anyone from secondary school now, i dont hardy talk to anyone from my first college, only one person (who is my best mate) i talk to 1 person from my last college.i got married last month to my man, i invited about 10 friends from my colleges, only 2 turned up, thats why i only talk to one out of my last college.i do not trust anyone anymore. im so scared of making new friends, talking to people or being around people. im scared about going into town but ill walk around town shopping, i dont have to talk to anyone. its that bad i think i have a phobia of being bullied. people in the UK might of seen that program about them children who have a phobia about being bullied. i think i have that. my baby (a boy) is 1year old next month, i have never took him to a play group/toddler group. i go out once a week with my hubby and son. im just to scared! i dont want to be rejected again. i went to a play center with my hubby and baby but felt so uncomfortable i had to leave! i dont want my son to be scared of people like me. im going to sure start tomorrow to see if any play groups are going on, but ill probably be scared and i dont know if i can go in! ill only go at the moment if my hubby is with me, no way would i go in on my own. how can i get my confidence up and help my phobia? should i go to the doctors and will they take it serously? i dont want to be bullied again! i dont know why people bully me. people say im not ugly, im kind of a tomboy, i prefere hanging out with guys, its always been the girls that bully me, which is why im so scared of going to play group.
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reader, anonymous, writes (8 December 2010): you have to learn to stick up for yourself! get a punching bag and practice and work out so you can kick some butt! it dont matter how tough they are, dont let them walk away scratch free!
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