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writes:We got married 15 years ago, I wasn’t really in love with him, I just wanted to be loved. I was abused when I was 7 years old by my mom and by my brother so I always looked for older men to love me. I never had a father in my life. I was a church child growing up. I was a gospel singer, I sung at the Apollo Theatre in Harlem NY, I won 8 times. I love to sing, that‘s where I get my release, just never got that big break. I got married when I was 21 years old, had my son, that was my first marriage. I had my first son when I was 17 years old by my high school boyfriend. I was a virgin then I met my first husband going to the store.I married him a month later. I don’t know what I was thinking. I got pregnant then he cheated on me with my friend. I left, and moved back home with my mom and grandmother so I went back to school and gtried to better my life. Now I had 2 kids at 22 years old without no father in their life, I went on welfare, got me an apartment in the worst area in Queens, and I find my way back to the church. I went on to being in off broadway plays, to show time at the Apollo. I had a lot of promises, but that‘s all they were. I am 48 years old now, living in Charlotte NC, now a pastor of a church me and my husband. I am trying every day to stay focussed. When I look back over my life, I can truly say I got a testimony, I hope this will inspire someone who reads this because I was a bad seed at one time in my life. I was on my way to my death, especially when my 12 year old son saved my life when I tried to commit suicide. I did not want to live. I just hated my life, I slept with so many different men, until I was sick. Not because I liked sex but because I was searching for live in all the wrong places. I thought because I was so pretty that somebody would love me, boy was I wrong. I had to love myself and that’s what I learned to do. I just woke up one morning and looked at my kids and said I got to better myself, so then I met my second husband. I was still looking for a father figure.I married my husband in 1994 and we are still married. I am hoping to stay married until death do us part. We have our problems but we keep striving. We are determined to make it so if you are going through with your life and having a hard time then hang in there and pray, He will make everything all right. God bless and thank you for reading.
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