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female
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36-40,
*iggytoes1818
writes:I have been on a roller coaster sense starting high school. I have had friend problems guy problems and of course more. Last december I got to the point that I felt so alone I cried every night. I have never had problems with making friends and get anlong with many people, usually people that are older. I felt so pressured last summer to have sex that I gave up my virginity to someone I barely knew, I let my best friend treat me like shit and didnt stand up for myself, I let everything that anyone said get to me. This past winter I started dating this guy that is very sweet and caring, and he goes to a different school. In the past I have tried alcohol smoking regular stuff too. I had been dating the guy for 4 months before everything went downhill. I loved school while dating him i had many friends and everything was great. Something I know is wrong with me though because I found myself trying to get pregnant with him. I wouldn't keep the baby but I just felt like I needed something else...I don't know what. I started becoming friends with this 23 year old women through sports and hung out with her a few times a week for practicing soccer. I stared to changemy attitude more carefree and slutty I would say. I feel influenced subconsiously by people. Then with my boyfriend I started to get bored which I think is normal but then something really bad happened. I was just getting a little tipsy with my friend and we called this guy 4 years older and we both hooked up with him like a threesome...and i had sex with him...the next morning I didnt feel guilty or anything and i wanted to be single for the summer. We hungout and were a little drunk with the older guy again and we had a threesome again. Then it got out to the whole school...my boyfriend never found out but i broke up with him just wanting to be best friends..we hung out as friends yesterday and things were fine..i have really bad anxiety and i cant help but feel alone...and feel like life will go by way too fast. Is there anyone out there that can help me...I don't know whats wrong with me but I am obviously not in good health, please dont be critical it wont help me. i am on anti depression medication but I need more help please do!!
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reader, anonymous, writes (12 June 2009): I don't think you love yourself enough so maybe you can try to let go of some of the things you do and try to enjoy life on a more real side. There's a lot of things to experience out there which a more meaningful than the things you do now.
More times than I'd like I sought comfort in my friends or just doing "taboo". Overtime I realized I didn't love myself enough and I changed my habits and learned to appreciate other things rather than being thirsty for more. I don't think you know what you want but it can't be the life you have now.
I'm happy you want to change. Life goes by fast I happen to think it is true but I won't hurt myself for a short run to give up the finer things in life which I think you will come to see as you get older. Don't rush it else you will really miss out on life. I don't know how to help you I wish I could be maybe you can find someone closer to you which can rly help you face to face.
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