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writes:For the past two years I have been in love with a 34 year old woman in my office I am 47 but the age thing is unimportant to her. She has been living for the past five years with her boyfriend who seems abusive to her. On several occasions she has said to me that she would love to move out but due to her salary she can’t. She basically told me one day that she falls in love with the wrong kind of guy like the “bad boy” type. She is divorced because her ex cheated on her. I too am going through a divorce and she was my moral support. As of yet it has not been finalized. We started out like anyone else communicating. We seem to hit it off right away. We must have spent our entire days together. I would ask her if she would join me for coffee and we would spend an hour together just talking about the days events. She even asked me for my cell number. On special days like her birthday I would take her out to dinner. Last year I literally fell in love with her on her birthday. It struck me like a ton of bricks. I began to e-mail back and forth. First it was general e-mails then they grew more intense and more personal. She would share personal stories about herself as far as her visits to the gyno are concerned and when she felt bad on her time of the month. I would write to her love poetry and the like. Last Valentine’s Day I went overboard by writing a beautiful love poem with a red rose. She freaked out and didn’t know what to do so she called me on the cell phone and said to me we are only co-workers right? I said yes. One day she said for me to watch the phones for her while she stepped out of the office. She had left her computer without logging off. I noticed that her e-mail folder under her inbox had my initials in the saved folder list. I was skeptical and click on the folder, and to my amazement I literally saw all of my e-mails for the past year saved to her outlook folder. I was in shock. I thought she must have some kind of feelings for me??? What kind of woman selectively saves romantic e-mails from someone else??? Recently I have noticed her not talking as much to me, or wanting to go out for coffee. She never knew I saw her e-mail account though. I had left it exactly as I found it. Now she casually talks to me small talk and that’s it. I don’t know if it got too serious for her or what. At least she remembers all the nice things I have ever done for her. About a week ago she was transferred to another nearby office within the same company. It is about one minute away by car. I know she is stressing out over there because I know the type of person she is. Last Friday she called me on my cell phone going home to tell me what is going on. I calmed her down and told her how smart, beautiful and valuable she is. She worries too much. In a nut shell I basically want to tell her that I love her. My problem is that I am afraid of rejection that is why I have never said it to her before. I have only written it via e-mails, love letters and notes, never in person. I remember once she confronted me what was wrong and we sat down as I cried in front of her telling her that I had feelings for her. She said to me that I was married at the time and she was seeing someone else. Maybe if we both were single it would be different. We left it at that with a hug. Last Thanksgiving after work she gave me a big hug and an accidental kiss on the lips from the corners of our mouths. When we hug it is very tight and long. Basically I am at my wits end. I think she has feelings for me but I don’t know if she loves me or not. Some one out there please help me I am so confused!!!!!
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reader, Cerberus_Raphael  +, writes (18 August 2010):
 You two sound perfect for each other! Be there for her, be there WITH her. She doesn't need an abusive boyfriend like the one she has right now. Go for it, I'm sure if you do, you'll be happier. You both need each other.
I hope that helps.
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reader, Duckiies +, writes (17 August 2010):
 well first to start out.. you got one narrow road in front of you. I had to reread it twice to understand your situation and its seems deep.
Its plain and simple. Your head and mind already made up. You should totally go for her. Your 47 years old. You should be able to handle this.JUST GO FOR IT, WE ONLY LIVE ONCE. worst come to worst you guys won't go out. Thats it. BUt if you try and she does really show some interest in you, then you should do what is best. Your only objective is be there for her and always make her happy.
you need to relax. You are stressing to much about this.
smile a lot and make her feel special
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