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Does sex have to feel so mechanical?

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Question - (3 October 2008) 2 Answers - (Newest, 3 October 2008)
A female Canada age 41-50, anonymous writes:

Another one of the thousands of sex questions on this site, but I really have no one else to talk to about this sensitive subject.

I have a boyfriend who I've been with for 8 years... but we're really just best friends now. About 4 years ago, the sexual stuff died out, then the romance, closeness etc... now we just spend all our time together enjoying the wonderful friendship we have.. but have never really broken up - I know.. wierd and confusing. We are really each other's soulmates.

Anyways, I can't help but feel the sexual stuff died out, because I always found sex to be so painful. I'm 25 and when I lost my virginity at 19 with him (the only man I've ever been with).. it really didn't go according to my expectations. I found it painful, uncomfortable, I felt self conscious the entire time, and was worried sick about becoming pregnant.

I'm one of those people very sensitive to medication, and never managed to find a pill that didn't give me horrible side effects.. so I gave up on that idea and only use condoms.. which kinda prevents you from completely relaxing of course.. because there's always the chance of it breaking.

We never actually had a place to ourselves... never moving in together. Actually, we were living with our own parents the entire time.. and it made it difficult. I remember distinctly, there were times when his folks would actually just COME into his room when we were attempting to 'do it'.. let me tell you, I have never moved so fast hehe!

Having no privacy and being surrounded by parental units created a feeling of unease.. I was always worried about whether we'd get caught.. I think this kind of led to the feeling that whenever I went to have sex, I felt like I was doing something wrong. (My boyfriend NEVER took up the opportunity to move in with me.. it just never happened.. as much as I tried to raise it with him)..

Anyways, he's the only guy I've been with.. but I've never enjoyed sex with him. I can't shake the fear that I'll dry out and something will go wrong, the condom will break and I'll fall pregnant, which scares me because I never felt ready for a baby back then.. and still don't now!

Sex to me always felt so mechanical. I even tried feeding him inside me MYSELF, so I wouldn't tighten up and dry out.. in the hopes that if I was in control of the situation, that it would be successful.. but it never really worked. I eventually dry out and feel like someone's scraping sandpaper up inside me.

It hurts, it feels like it pushes up inside my bladder.. I can't seem to enjoy it in ANY position and most of the time it ends in tears. My boyfriend is a lovely, sweet and caring person.. so it is not that he's ever made me self conscious about myself. Now he just really don't care about anything like that.. and sort of closed off to any of it.. hence the reason we're friends without being anything else.

I've spent years feeling like half a woman over this issue.. because sex is such a huge part of everyone's lives! I don't miss it though - because how could you, when you've never enjoyed it? But I often feel frustrated that I can't just be normal like all the other women out there. I feel defective.. and when I think back over the past few years.. I do think this has had a significant impact on my self esteem.

I've been checked out by my Gyno and he wanted to widen up my tunnel, as he said it was extremely tight. But then when I was having a routine check of my ovaries recently, which involved me having to stick a big camera inside myself, it went off without a hitch.. I had no pain and no problems.. so now he doesn't feel anything's required.

Is there ANY OTHER WOMEN out there who have been through this? I'm assuming it's psychological.. but I have never been raped or molested in the past.. I have a clean slate as far as that goes.

Would love to hear your thoughts. Thanks.

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A female reader, Faybelline United Kingdom +, writes (3 October 2008):

Faybelline agony auntI can find it difficult and quite painful when using condoms too; it gets all dry and then I'm too focused on that and can't enjoy it.

A little lube, like 'supermum' suggests, usually helps a lot for me; you should try it.

Obviously you've not had great experiences with sex and that's stopping you from enjoying it too; maybe you could try a new setting, like go to a hotel for a couple of nights, just so it's a bit more relaxed and doesn't feel so routine.

Good luck :)

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A female reader, supermum United Kingdom +, writes (3 October 2008):

supermum agony auntYou could always try lube... the problem with the parents situation is that you never let yourself relax... you couldnt...

thats why the camera thing was fine... i bet you were more relaxed.

If you live on your own, invite him round, otherwise, choose a time when your parents are out, invite him round and have an evenin relaxing... have a nice meal, a glass of wine (or similar) or two and let your self relax.

Get some sexy underwear so that you can feel confident and super sexy, which will help aswell, and loosen up a bit. Dont feel any pressure, maybe just kiss and cuddle at first... and make sure you explore his body aswell as him exploring your. Take your time, you should spend about 45 mins on foreplay in my book anyway! Then, you feel your self. If you are wet, there shouldnt be a problem, and if your not, put some lube on... you could maybe try a tingle one to give you some new sensations (although the Durex tingle lube can burn a little bit, but in a good way). If it doesnt work out, dont worry, just enjoy the closeness that you had lost.

All the best babe,

email me to let me know if i can help more, and if there is an improvement.xxx

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