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writes:hello everyone, i would just like to know if i am normal and just an opinion maybe an advice if you can, so here is my story.I'm 18 years old, and I've always been dreaming about real love, watching love movies and all that girlie stuff. I never went out much when i was younger my parents kept me pretty much at home. I used to be very naive concering guys and relationships and I actually never had a real relationship.Now I am all alone in Paris = going wild! Making out with guys and just playing arround with them and I don't even care, just having fun... The thing is a week before I came to Paris I got what I've always been dreaming of: A guy I used to like committed to me, told me he loves me. He is a really good guy, he never had a girl friend even though he is really hot but he is just a kind of nerd and sports freak he just never really cared about girls. So I spend a few weeks before I came here with him. He really cared and gave me all his love. But as I already said, he never had anything with girls, he never kissed girls, 0 experience. He doesn't drink, doesnt smoke and doesnt go to Parties. These are all the things I like... So when I came to Paris I started cheating because I couldn't resist all the hot french guys in amazing surroundings, I mean it's Paris. Until yesterday I felt so bad so I broke up with this guy who was waiting for me back at home and now I only have 2 weeks left for me in Paris. I don't think I love him or loved him, if I did I wouldn't have been cheating. I think I am not ready for serious relationships. But I'm just surprised by myself, I'm wondering, he is all you ever wanted, now that you have it you threw it away?! Where is the little romantic naive girl in me? French guys are so so good kissers... really enjoying my time... but of course not looking for anything serious as I am leaving soon. But even though, I spend friday night at a guys place I met him 3 times before when we were partying with a group but i thought he wasnt intrested in me, that day we were dancing and then we kissed and I went to his house he asked me if I want to have sex with him and I said yes, it would have been my first time and he knew it. But we didnt, it didnt work I don't know why he said I wasn't getting him excited enough... And that really confused me it's kind of ouuuch. The next day I saw him again at a house party, and I must say I really looked my best, I was wearing a really hot dress that guys love on me. He is not really good looking, I could have better guys, but I don't know why I'm so intrested in him, actually intrested in having sex with him because he was really turning me on. He seems really smart he studies politics and he asked me really intresting questions, which I am not used to normally guys talk only about shit with you when they want fuck you. So yesterday he was looking at me a few times and smiling but we didnt really talk. Then i was getting slowly drunk I ended up sitting next to him, what I remember is that he left early, and he left like 5 min after I sat next to him, but I wasnt talking to him not even looking at him... It's so weird! i really just want to kiss him again nothing else.. he is really kind of cute.. but what is that with me? Do I always want the guys I can't have? Because I'm more intrested in him than in all the other french guys I had here in Paris! Am I sick? or do I just love playing the game of love but when I win I get bored? People, just tell me what do you think about that I am a little bit confused right now... Help Help pleaaase!
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reader, VSAddict  +, writes (17 July 2011):
 You're not ready to commit. When you get too close, you guard yourself and find a way to distance yourself. I think you should take a break and just have fun. And when it's time to be with someone, you'll know it. Don't get into this guy because you will likely back out once he's really into you. Unless you're ready to back out on another guy, don't force yourself into a relationship. Work on yourself and figure out what makes you walk away.
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