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writes:From when I started primary school, right up until the day I left secondary school, I was consistently bullied, intimidated and made fun of. The thing is, I still have no idea, to this day why it happened to me. When I started primary school at the age of 7, it seemed like the majority of the school hated me for absolutely no reason, ganged up on me and left me out and I can just remember the sickening feeling of dread and loneliness and it makes me want to cry. This continued right until the end of secondary school. However when I was in secondary school, the girls seemed to just distance themselves from me and look down at me and thought of me as a slut even though I wasn't and all of the boys tried it on with me, even though i refused them every time, yet openly they wouldn't even acknowledge me and looked at me like I was scum. I did have a few good friends, but it was still an awful feeling. It seems that the whole of my home town hates me and looks down on me. I'm attractive/average intellegence/not at all nerdy/not overweight and a nice person and I have absolutely no idea why this ever happened to me and ever since I have been beating myself up as to why people used to do this to me and how there must be something awfully wrong with me that I didn't know about, yet when I went to sixth form in another town at the age of 16 the problems just disappeared and I was surrounded by friends and considered one of the popular crowd and I now have a lovely boyfriend and am extremely happy with life in general. The majority of all my friends who I met 2 years ago when I started sixth form live in other local surrounding towns and my boyfriend lives in the town closest to my hometown so most of the time I'm out of my hometown, but whenever I come back and I see anyone who used to go to my old school I just feel sick and go all nervous and shaky and they make sarcastic comments between each other and laugh, which was exactly what happened when I was in the pub with my friends last night and a couple of girls from my old school saw me. Although I've found happiness now, I still feel so much doubt about myself, and most of the time I wouldn't feel safe walking around my own town as I know if I see anyone they will make hurtful remarks about me and intimidate me. I've tried since I was about 7 to stop feeling intimidated but it never worked. It's got as bad as I hate being at my own home in my own town as I know the majority of people look down at me and most likely hate me and it just makes me depressed so I avoid my home as much as possible to escape the old feelings. It's a really small town which in this case equates to small minds so people who are my age (18-19) are not afraid to still bully someone which is sad but true... Anyone got any suggestions to help me feel better about myself? :(
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reader, charitysend  +, writes (21 February 2011):
I'm so glad you found a better school! You are right in that there was absolutely no reason for the bullying. There never is, except one -- because the bullies can get away with it. They chose you as a target because they could.
It's time to stand up to the bullying. You need to give as good as you get. Ask your new friends to back you. Next time sarcastic comments are thrown your way, throw some back. "I see you're still as ugly and stupid as you ever were" is one place to start.
You have a right to be in your hometown. Don't let the bullies take it away from you. Stand up for your rights!
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reader, lovedoctorlauren +, writes (20 February 2011):
I was in your shoes once I wasnt bullied for long but I was bullied. At first I didnt understand why it was happening to me I had great friends but then I started to get bullied. What I got told to do was right down all the things I liked about my self and what I did well and thought about the positives about me maybe you could try this.Hope it helps
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